Historia. | Kuroo Tetsuro

05

trigger warning: self harm, and mention of suicide.

"I'm not your mother anymore, I don't know who you are.. From this day on, you're an orphan there. Do I make myself clear?" 

What is she talking about? Is she abandoning me? Are my parents really going to abandon me? That's just mean! I know I've made mistakes but being abandoned by my parents--it just hurts. I don't understand where this is all coming from.

"Mom, why are you doing this? W-Why can't I stay with you instead?" I ask, seeing nothing but a stoic expression on her face. "I-I'm sorry but I'm not coming with you.." I tell the lady, walking up to my mother to beg. 

"You are a disgrace to this family. We lost our jobs because of you, our boss shut down their company because of their daughter, and that happened because of you." Wait.. Misaki's family shut down their business? "You've done nothing but harm the people around you, (Y/n)."

"Wait mom--!" She slapped me.

"You are not my daughter anymore, haven't I made myself clear?" Tears started to flow from my eyes, the pain in my cheek still lingering.

Katsumi-san held me by my shoulders, eyeing my face as she wiped my cheeks. She hugged me and let me cry on her, patting my back and whispering 'it's okay' into my ear. She checked on my face, smiling apologetically then letting me cry more on her. 

I couldn't protest any further. Mom was ready to hit me anytime I'd to approach her. I got all my things from my room, putting them in a box. I decided to leave photographs of us when we were younger, I couldn't bring myself to take them with me. They hate me anyway.

Katsumi-san helped me fix my things. She neatly folded my clothes in the bag she brought with her. I haven't stopped crying since mom slapped me. I was just filled with fear when I saw the anger in her eyes. She really despises me, a total troublemaker. I didn't even do anything..

Mom gave me an envelope, giving me more money--what is this? Allowance? She didn't let me choose. She threw the envelope to my face. I opened it, checking how much she gave me. ¥2,000,000--¥4,000,000. I shove the envelope into the bag, heading out without looking at her.

I waited for Katsumi-san to finish her business with mom, leaning on her car as I did. I just looked at my phone, scrolling through my gallery to look at my pictures with my family. I only have 10 of them. I don't have anything that's pretty memorable. In the end, everything's just trash.

Katsumi-san unlocked her car, letting me enter for us to leave. I plug in my earphones but I just stared at my phone, I'm not doing anything. I don't know what music I should play, there's nothing too amusing to play. I don't know--the feeling's just not there.

"Sweetheart, take your blazer off for me please?" I look to my right, seeing Katsumi-san point to my arms. "Please?" She doesn't sound fake.. I take it off, hissing when the cloth made contact with the cuts. "Your uniform's soaked in blood. Why did you cut yourself?"

"A voice in my head said that I should." I answer, wearing the blazer again to cover my blood soaked sleeves.