Ash x Eiji one-shots

I can't let go.

ha yeah this ones sad lol

it's about a 2 week time skip from when Eiji got on the plane to go back to Japan. 

Eiji's Pov

I've been in Japan for about 2 weeks now. I haven't heard from Ash once. I haven't heard from Bones, Kong, or Sing either. I have no idea why. I don't think i did anything wrong. All i know is that Ibe has been acting really weird for the past few weeks. He's been weird ever since we got back home. I feel like he's hiding something from me. Maybe he's hiding the fact that Ash is on his way over here! That would explain all the secret phone calls..Oh and maybe the reason why he hasn't told me is because Ash wanted it to be a surprise! That sounds like something he would do. I just hope he gets here soon. I miss him. And i really need to tell him how i feel.

Ibe's Pov

(when he got the call)

When me and Eiji got back home, I got a phone call from someone. It was Sing. Before he would say anything, he told me to make sure im alone. I could already tell it was going to be bad news. Once i was alone, he told me about Ash. I felt my heart drop. The poor boy..he was only 17. And Eiji...he's not going to take this well. (current time) I just haven't had the heart to tell him. Sing keeps telling me that i'm gonna have to tell him, or he will.  I just dont think i can do it. I cant think of anyway to tell him. I guess i cou- My thoughts were cut off by a loud yell from upstairs. Eiji's parents are out of town for a week. So i've been staying with him because i wanted to keep him company. I got scared that he might have fallen or something so i rushed upstairs.

(sorry this switches point of views a few times)

Eiji's Pov

I was cleaning my room when my phone started ringing. It must be Ash! He must be telling me that he's outside my door to surprise me! When i picked up the phone, i saw that it wasn't Ash, it was Sing. Maybe he's here too! So i answered the phone and said, "Hello!" "Hey Eiji.." Sing said worryingly. "Is everything okay?" I said timidly. "Okay so he hasn't told you..Eiji i need to tell you something, and it isn't good." He said, sounding really worried and sad. "Oh..well please tell me." I said, beginning to get worried. "It's Ash. He was found in the library. He had a stab wound in his chest, and the librarian didn't catch it in time. He's gone Eiji." He said quietly. He's gone? No. I refuse to believe that. He would't give up. He would have fought to stay alive. "You're joking right? Ash would never die without putting up a fight. He can't be dead." I said while laughing to try and hide the fact that i was freaking out. "Eiji, I'm sorry. But I'm not kidding. I would never joke about something like this. Don't be mad, but Ibe has known since you guys got home. When they found Ash, he was still breathing. That's what we told Ibe-" I cut him off by yelling, "HE KNEW? SO I COULD HAVE SEEN HIM BEFORE HE DIED?" "Eiji he was only in the hospital for a few days, he was barely awake. There would have been no-" I cut him off again by saying," No. It wouldn't have mattered if he was awake or not. I still would have been able to see him. He's really gone...Ash is gone." I said while dropping to the floor. I dropped my phone to the floor as well. I could still hear Sing talking, but I couldn't understand what he was saying. I kept muttering 'he's gone' over and over again. I didn't even notice that Ibe had walked in. "Eiji listen I didn't tel-" I cut him off by saying," Please leave. I want to be alone." I said while looking at the ground trying not to cry. I heard a quiet 'okay' and then i heard the door close. That's when i broke down. I started sobbing and i picked up my phone and saw that Sing had hung up. So i quickly looked for Ash's contact and called it. "Please pick up..please." I said, still crying. It didn't even ring. It just said that this number is unavailable or no longer in service. That made me cry harder. I grabbed my phone from where i had dropped it after i heard the automated voice say that the number was out of service and threw it as hard as i could against the wall. I cried until i had no tears left.

Le time skip

Eiji's Pov

It's been about 6 years since Ash's death. I haven't gotten over it. Everyone keeps telling me to let go. But that's the thing, I can't let go. I don't think i'll ever be able to. I still see him all the time. It's why i sleep so much. He's in all of my dreams. I see him smile in my dreams. He looks like he's glowing. It always makes me so happy so i sleep as much as i can. Although, sometimes, they aren't happy dreams. Sometime's i have nightmares that involve him. Speaking of, i had one last night. And today has just been bad. Everyday is pretty bad, but today was just worse then others. All day today, all i heard was, 'you have to get over him', 'you need to find someone else', and worst one of all, 'he wouldn't want you to be this hung up over him'. I know he wouldn't. But i can't get over him. I just can't. I barely cry anymore. I don't really feel anything at this point. But, on the plus side, i get to visit Ash today. I just got back to New York. While I'm here, I am going to visit Sing and the other gang members. But first, I'm going to see Ash. He's buried here, and i really want to visit him. After a little bit of walking, I arrived at his grave site. I've been there several times, so i know exactly where to go. Plus i was at his funeral as well. They ended up doing it really late since i hadn't found out until later. Once i saw his grave, I looked at his name. 'Aslan Jade Callenreese.' He has such a pretty name. He's just perfect. I sat down next to his grave. I brought avocado shrimp salad. I know it's his favorite, and i've been trying to remind myself of him as much as i can. Which is easy since pretty much everything can remind me of him. As i ate, i started to think about what to say. I set down the salad, and began to talk about all that's happened since the last time i visited. "Everyone's telling me to get over you but i can't. No one seems to get that. It's just been hard without you." I said while tears welled up in my eyes. That surprised me since i hadn't cried in a while. "Oh..guess im crying for the first time in a while huh?" I said, almost like i was expecting him to respond. All of a sudden i felt warm all over. And it felt like i was being hugged. I swear i heard Ash say to me, "I'm right here. Everything will be okay." It could have been my imagination, but it felt to real. 

A few years later

Eiji's Pov

After I heard his voice that time, i started hearing it everywhere. And I know that I won't be able to actually seem him until im dead, but at least i know he's here. For now, that's good enough for me.

A/N

That hurt to write. But i hope you guys enjoyed.  Sorry if it's not the best, there's a lot going on rn lol. again feel free to leave requests. I hope you all have a good night/day. if you have a request, please dm me or leave it in the comments. Thank you. :)