Ash x Eiji one-shots

Fights

this one is for @karimah101

thank you so much for requesting!

Ash's Pov

I was walking back to me and Eiji's apartment after dealing with some things. I know he doesn't want me to live like this but i don't have a choice. I have to keep living like this otherwise he won't be safe. I mean nether would i but that's never mattered to anyone before. Except for him. It's one of the reasons why i need to protect him at all costs. After a good 15 minutes of walking, i arrived at our apartment. I figured Eiji would still be awake because he likes to make sure i come home safely. I've been trying to get in the habit of telling him before i leave, so he doesn't wake up and i'm gone. But, i was so rushed that i forgot. And normally i have no one to tell before i leave so sometimes i just forget. Hopefully he won't be too mad. I used my keys to open the door to our apartment, and walked in. The first thing i saw was Eiji sitting on the couch. As soon as i walked in, his head snapped towards me. He looked scared, sad, and mad. "Where have you been? I thought something happened to you! I thought you were taken- or worse killed! Why didn't you tell me?!" He said while walking over to me. "I'm really sorry, i forgot okay? l'll try not to do it again." I  said coming off more mean then i meant to sound. "You forgot!? All you have to do is tell me! I was so worried about you Ash!" He said looking like he was on the verge of crying. "Loo-" I said trying to explain but he interrupted me by saying, "Ash i know that you're not used to having someone that cares about you, but i'm not going anywhere. You can trust me, and it seems like you don't think you can. I just want to help you, and make sure your safe. But i can't do that if you don't tell me where you're going! I understa-" I cut him off by saying, " You understand? You have no idea what it's like for me! I hate being touched unless it's you Eiji! And it's bad that i feel that way because im no where near good enough for you. Not even close. I'm a murder Eiji. I'm a monster. Anyone could see that. You don't need to be with me, you deserve someone so much better. Someone who doesn't put you at harm all the time. Don't tell me you understand. You have no idea what it's like to love someone so much but in the back on your mind you know you can't and shouldn't have them!" I said while crying. I hadn't even noticed i was crying until Eiji slowly walked closer to me and asked if he could touch me. I said yes, and he reached up to wipe my tears away. "Ash i wasn't going to say i know what it's like for you. I know i don't. But you do deserve me. You deserve someone that will make you happy, and treat you correctly. I will do that if you'll let me. I'm sorry i got so mad at you. I was just worried and it came off as anger. I'm really sorry." He said and i noticed that tears welled up in his eyes. "No you don't have anything to be sorry for. I shouldn't have lashed out on you like that. I'm sorry, and i promise i'll try
to remember to tell you before i leave. I love you, Eiji." I said while hugging him. "Are you tired?" He asked, pulling away from the hug. "No, i feel like i need to comfort you. You look really worried still and your shaking." I said looking at him worryingly. "No, i'm okay now that you're here. I honestly want to help you. It helps me to know that you feel safe. So come on, you're not getting out of this, you need sleep." He said while dragging me to our room. "Okay okay but let me lock the door first you dummy" I said while blushing for how much he cares about me. It always makes me happy to know that someone cares about me so much. I locked the door and went back over to him. He then continued to drag me to our room. He surprisingly strong when he has goal in mind. especially when it involves me. We got to our room, and he immediately shoved some clothes into my chest and told me to change. "Oh and do you want me to leave while you change or just turn around?" He said while getting extra blankets from the closet. He didn't need to change since he had already been in clothes that he can wear to sleep. I also find it so cute that he always asks me to make sure he doesn't make me uncomfortable. "You can stay, and if you're comfortable with it you don't have to turn around. I'm comfortable around you, but thank you for asking." I said while slipping my shirt off. He turned around and was about to ask if i was sure, but then saw that i was serious. He smiled, "I'm glad your comfortable around me. I just didn't want to overstep your boundaries." He said while smiling. I then got the rest of my clothes off and put on what Eiji had given me. It was just one of his t-shirts and sweatpants. They were pretty comfortable. "Okay, let's go to sleep" He said while again, dragging me to the bed. Once we got in the bed, he asked if he could touch me, and i said "You don't have to ask, you know i trust you." "I know i just want to make sure." He said while gently pulling me close to him, so i could lay my head on his chest. He knows one of my comforts is his heartbeat. It reminds me that he is here, and that's he's safe. "Ash you know you're not a monster right? You don't have a choice. I promise you that i have never thought you were a monster. And i won't ever think you are. I love you so much, and i'm so proud of you." He said while kissing my head and running his hands through my hair, also knowing that it's a huge comfort for me. I know i seem weak right now, but he's the only one i let my guard down in front of. I listened to all of his comforting words and felt myself fall asleep. "I love you Ash, sweet dreams." He said while thinking i was asleep. I'm glad i was awake though. No matter what happens in the future, i know i'll always have him. I couldn't be more grateful for him.

Sorry this took so long! School was busy this week. Again, thank you for requesting! I don't know if this was what you wanted but i have a hard time making them fight lol. Thank you all for 2k reads! I hope you have a good/day night, i love you guys! <3