Putangina, putangina.
Paulit ulit akong nagmumura sa isip habang naglalakad palayo. I wasn't aware of where I was going, I just kept walking to my heart's content.
What are they gonna think of me now?
Gold digger? a hoe? a player?
Patuloy ang pagbuhos ang luha ko kasabay ng simoy ng hangin na kinakarga ang buhoy ko.
Napapikit ako ng mariin nang makarating ako sa mabato na dalampasigan.
I hugged my shoulders as I felt the coldness of the wind touching my body.
Iisipin nila ngayon, lalo na si Caleb na pinaglaruan ko siya.
I ruffled my hair in so much annoyance, Nadala ako, hindi ko inisip kung anong pwedeng iresulta nung sinabi kong iyon.
I was careless, fuck.
"Alexa" The voice of Caleb made my stomch churn as I faced him with an apologetic facade.
"I-I'm so sorry" I tried walking towards him to get his arm pero inilayo lang niya iyon sa'kin.
He looked away, I can see tears in his eyes.
It broke me how much I've hurted him, A dear friend who didn't do anything but to care for me.
Lumunok ako, I felt a lump in my throat forming. "Sorry, sorry tinago ko. Sorry, sorry please" Suminghap ako habang nakatingin sakaniya.
He looked at me with resentment in his eyes. "Nagsinungaling ka?" My lips formed a thin line, my eyes felt hot.
"I had no choice" I explained softly while looking at him, hindi ko alam kung paano ako mageexplain. Hindi ko alam kung paano niya ako mapapatawad.
"You had no what?" Parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa sinabi ko.
"Sorry, please ayaw ko ng ganito-" Marahas niyang inilayo ang kamay sa'kin.
"Tangina! Tangina eh, umasa ako eh" His hand was on his left waist while the other one was covering his mouth.
He looked like he was in so much pain. "S-Sabi mo, hindi ka pa handa. Sabi mo mahal mo pa ex mo, sabi mo kailangan mo pa ng time para magheal" I knew it, he's gonna bring this topic.
"Bullshit lang pala 'yon no? Para ano? para magmukha akong tanga? Ganon ba 'yon? ha? ha!" I flinched when he screamed in front of me with so much anger.
He sounded betrayed, I felt so ridiculous. "Putangina Alexa, bakit mo 'yun pinatulan? ano bang meron 'yon na wala ako?" Lumunok ako.
Madami.
"Limang taon na tayong magkakilala, tapos 'yon wala man lang isang buwan mahal mo na? Anong klaseng pakulo 'to?" His veins were visible, his neck, ears ang nose was so red. Maybe because of anger.
"Wala kang alam" I answered, trying to calm myself from saying foul words to him.
"Tangina eh, baket siya pa? andito naman ako. Andito ako lagi pero bakit siya pa? Ako 'yung andito pero siya 'yung pinili mo?" I bowed my head down.
"Caleb, I made it clear to you before na hanggang magkaibigan lang tayo" He was holding back his tears, halatang halata na nasasaktan siya pero pinipili nalang niyang magalit.
"Hanggang magkaibigan lang ba talaga o naging hanggang magkaibigan lang dahil dumating siya?" Napaawang ang labi ko, parang bigla akong natikom sa sinabi niya.
I never had feelings for him, I've always seen him as a brother figure to me. I could never let myself like him, kahit na gusto ko pa.
"Siguro kaya mo 'yun pinatulan kahit na hindi ka pa nakakamove on kasi mayaman no?" Rage filled inside me I had to slap him so hard.
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