"Remember the dates you canceled because someone needed you? I let that slide because I know they need you. Remember when you made me wait until the restaurant was closed just so you could accompany Shayne? Remember when you left me when I needed you the most?" Everything struck me like a truck, all the memories we had that I've been trying to bury for the past years was all clear to me.
"That one time...I was broken and I needed someone to share the pain with me you were there...you were there pero i-isang tawag lang ng isang tao na nanghihingi ng tulong mo-" He looked at me, with so much pain.
"Umalis ka na" His voice broke. Every second felt like an eternity, every second felt like daggers piercing through my chest.
"Did you somehow realized that...I need you too?" He smiled bitterly before shooking his head.
"Isang tawag lang ng tao iiwan mo ako, but I accepted it. It was fine as long as you're with me, as long as you go home to me baby" I covered my mouth.
"I accepted the fact that everything is more important than me, that everything comes first before me. Pero-pero isang beses lang kita kinailangan, isang beses lang ako humingi ng atensyon mo and you failed...to give it to me"
"You were the only person who can erase all of my problems because you...you're my home" Umawang ang labi ko, patuloy ang pagtibok ng puso ko.
"Kasi mas pipiliin kita, kahit na tawagin ako ng buong mundo sayo at sayo ako pupunta, sayo lang. Kasi mahal na mahal kita" I tried coming closer to him but he took a step back.
"M-Minahal din naman kita ah...napagod din naman ako ah, p-pero kailangan kasi ako ng lahat, Mateo" I smiled bitterly before holding his hand softly.
"I-I was the only one who was strong enough to carry all the burden. I was broken, y-yes I was in pain, I also needed you..." Halos mawalan na ako ng laway na kakalunok, trying to ease the pain in my throat.
"Araw araw kitang kinailangan, gabi, umaga...ikaw lang ang kailangan ko pero h-hindi ako tumawag, hindi ako nagpumilit kasi alam kong may problema ka din...t-the day I saw you drunk nakita ko na-" Suminghap muna ako.
"Na hindi ka pumasa sa isang sem at nadiagnose ang tatay mo ng stage one lung cancer. So how do you expect me to share my pain with you when you're already hurting" He licked his, ang mga kamay niya ang nanginginig at nakikita kong nagtataas baba ang dibdib niya.
"We were...both in pain and leaving was the best choice because we-"
"Bullshit" He cussed before pulling me closer to him. His hand is on my waist now.
"All the pain would vanish if you stood beside me Alexa! Everything with be okay as long as you're by my side baby" Pumikit ako ng marrin bago nagiwas ng tingin.
"M-My father was jailed! My sister was pregnant wala kaming pera! Sa tingin mo saan ako kukuha ng malaking halaga? huh?"
-Flashback-
"Anak naman, bakit?" Napatakip si mama sa mukha. Bakas sa mukha nila ni Papa ang pagkadismaya habang si ate naman ay nakayuko lang, hawak hawak ang tiyan.
6 months na ata. Kaya pala hindi siya nagpakita samin dahil tinatago niya ang pagbubuntis niya.
"S-Sorry ma, hindi ko sinasadya-"
"Anong hindi sinasadya?!" I flinched when mom raised her voice at my sister.
Nilapitan ko siya at hinaplos ang likod. "Ma, intindihin mo naman si Ate. Buntis 'yan makakasama sa bata" Tumingin sa'kin si Mama ng mariin bago niya ibinalik ang atensyon kay ate.
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