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Chapter 35

Marissa POV:

As Grayson stands before me I couldn't help but melt into his eyes. The way his jawline was perfectly sculpted. Or how his shirt is a little too small for him and hugs his muscles in all the right places. NO. Snap out of it Marissa. I tried opening my mouth to speak but nothing came out. I just stood there staring. I'm a complete idiot.

"Well hello, Grayson is it? I'm Matt it's nice to finally meet you."

"Hey dude! Your vines are awesome."

Thankfully Matt saved me from this awkward social encounter. Why was I like this. Grayson and Ethan used to be my best friends besides Paige. Why is it so hard now?

I finally snapped back into reality and realized that I was still standing by the door holding it open. I'm such a weirdo.

"Hey guys! It's so nice to see you two again!" I gave both Ethan and Grayson a hug hoping they wouldn't bring up what just happened. "So are you on tour with us for the rest of the time?"

"Yessuriee! Our room is like three doors down from yours." Ethan stated.

"Hey, Marissa. Can I talk to you for a second." Grayson looked at me. I looked over at Matt and he gave the head nod to go. I didn't want to. But I knew I should.

We walked out of Matt's room and into their room. Grayson sat down on the chair and I sat on the bed right across.

"Sooo." Grayson broke the silence.

"Sooo. You're the one that wanted to talk." We both laughed.

"I love your sense of humor." There it is again. The butterflies. I tried suppressing them, but it didn't work.

"Haha. Yupp. Everyone tells me that I should be a stand up comedian haha you know the kind that tells jokes to people in front of a crowd." Shit. I'm making this situation even worse for myself.

"Wow. Even after years of not seeing each other I still make you nervous!" He slowly started to walk towards me. He stroked the side of my face and I gulped really loudly.

"Yo-You don't make m-me nervous. Never have n-never will."

"Oh come on Marissa. We both know you had the biggest crush on me. The whole school knew." Then he whispered in my ear. "But what they didn't know is that the feeling was mutual." His voice sent shivers down my spine. I couldn't do this. I pushed him off me and ran to the door.

"Marissa I know you still like me."

"I'm dating Matt. And I couldn't be any happier. He treats me like a princess and he is the sweetest thing to me. He is exactly what I want." Was I saying that to convince Grayson or myself? Was sweet and kind what I wanted?

I just opened the door and slammed it behind me. I fell to the floor and started to cry. I didn't know what to do. The tears kept falling and it was like a tsunami took over.

What felt like an eternity later, I felt familiar hands pick me up and carried me into a room. I was placed on the bed and tucked in. It was probably only 12 o'clock but I dosed off.

..........

I woke up still in bed. I looked at the clock: 8:40. Wow. I slowly started to sit up when I saw the familiar face come out of the bathroom.

"If you wanna talk about it I'm here." Shawn. I missed him so much.

I just got up and ran to give him a hug.

"When did you get here!"

"I came back from tour early! I walked up to say hi to everyone and I saw you crying on the floor so I brought you here."

"Thank you so much. Honestly."

"So do you want to talk about it?"

I explained to him how I used to have a huge crush on Grayson, but I thought that passed. It was until I saw him again that the feelings came flooding back. But I had Matt. And that's what I thought I needed. But seeing Grayson brought adventure and spontaneity. Something Matt didn't give me. But I wasn't sure what I wanted or needed for that matter.

"Well. You don't have to choose. Just go where your heart takes you. That's where you'll be the happiest. It's hard to have to choose between two people because one is always going to be hurt. You need to put other people aside and think about what you want. Because in the end your happiness is all that matters."

I'm not sure if what Shawn said is going to help my decision, but he sure as heck makes me feel batter.