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Chapter 31

Marissa POV:

I know what I did was wrong. Honestly I don't know why I did it tho, it just felt right at the moment. I have never had anyone care about me as much as Matt did, and I completely blew it. Why am I feeling bad about this!? Matt is the one that cheated on me after he got drunk at a party! I should not be the one apologizing! But then again who else can I turn to. Matt was my first love. Is my first love actually. I still love Matt. I'm not that kind of cheesy romantic who says they love the person after two weeks. Honestly tho I've known Matt for a while. The amount of time he has known me is astonishingly shorter than the time I've known him, but that is irrelevant. No one has shown me that kind of affection or attention for that matter, and I don't think I'm ready to let that go yet. I need to go find him and explain all of this. I need Matt back. I'm not ready to share everything that is running through my head right now with him, but I am ready to forgive and move on. Because I'm not sure when I'm ever going to get another opportunity like this. I mean it took 16 years out of my life for this to happen, who knows how long it is going to take for someone else to come along.

"I have to go. This was a mistake. I love Matt, and I can't do this to him." I said to Cam as I got up and walked towards the door.

"No babe don't leave yet." He said pulling me closer to him one last time.

"Cameron stop. You know my feelings toward you is nothing more than a best friend."

"That's not how you were last night." He said winking at me and running his hand up the hem of my shirt.

"Stop, please." I said pushing myself away. "If you want some fun, go call one of the sluts in your phone. I bet some of them are dying to be with you." (A/N I know cameron isn't like this AT ALL. it is just for story purposes! xoxo)

"Go be with that loser boyfriend of yours."

"I will." With that I slammed the door shut, causing it to blow wind down my spine.

He was right. Matt was a loser. He was an adorable, cat loving, dinosaur noise making, loser. But he was my loser, and I loved every aspect about him. Well everything except the getting drunk and making out with some other chick, but besides the point. Matt was weird, and I liked weird. He was different and obnoxious at times. His love for his fans is probably what drew me towards him. He goes out of his way for each and everyone of them. He even gets sad when something he planned didn't work out. He thinks we will get disappointed and leave his side, but little does he know we are here till the end. And even if all of his fans leave, at least I know he will always have someone by his side supporting him through every step of the way. Me.

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Matt POV:

Tears are still streaming down my face, and my eyes are burning from the sting. I don't know how Marissa will react honestly. She will probably punch me in the face and walk away. I would if I were her. I've messed up big time. And I said some hateful things to Nash. I just lost the most important girl in my life, and I'm about to lose one of my best friends too. Did I just say most important girl in my life. Besides my family members I guess I could say that was true. Marissa has been there with me through everything, and she never slipped away. She handles my weirdness and awkwardness. She even listened to all my stories about how much I love cats. No one has ever cared as much as she does. Marissa honestly is the only person in my life who hasn't ran away from me. And I think I totally blew it.

My feet are moving so fast towards Nash and Cameron's room, I didn't even notice I ran right into someone.

"Oh my gosh I'm so sorry I didn't see you there. I'm just trying to find my girlfriend because I need to-"

"Matt it's me." Marissa stood before me looking beautiful as ever. She had no make up on and I could tell she was crying because her eyes were puffy. She was only wearing a baggy sweatshirt, which I happened to notice was mine, but she still looked amazing.

"Marissa, I can't even begin to apologize and explain to you how so-" She cut me off again by pulling me into a long embrace. My emotions took the best of me, and I began to cry. Not like sobbing crying, more like a steady flow of tears.

"Matt. Don't cry please. I'm here. I always have been and always will be. I don't know what happened, but whenever you're ready to tell me I'll be all ears. I believe you, Matt." As the words came out of her mouth there was only one thing I could think of that I could do that wouldn't ruin the moment. So I did it. I kissed her, minimizing the space between us. I put my hand on the small of her back and pulled her closer to me. She ran her fingers through my un brushed hair. We kissed for what felt like hours. Every perfect moment leading to the next. Just the two of us. She pulled away, still keeping her forehead connected to mine.

"Marissa. Thank you."

"For what?" She asked confused, as if she couldn't tell.

"Thank you for always being there for me. You were there when no one else was. You stuck with me through everything, even through this. No sane person would do that. And you put up with me. Not even my mom can put up with me for more than a week. You're very special to me, and I don't want to lose you. I'm not ready to lose you just yet." I said tears building in my eyes.

"Matt, it's going to take a whole lot more to get rid of me. I'll be here for a very long time. I'll be here till the end if you let me." Then we kissed again. Each kiss seeming hungry for more. My hands explored the hem of her shirt as they creeped up to feel her spine shiver under my touch.

"I don't think we should do this here." Marissa said laughing. I totally forgot we were in the middle of the hallway. We continued to kiss all the way to the entrance of my door. I know Nash and Paige are in her room, and Carter is out with the guys so no one will enter. I put the "do not disturb" sign on the door just to take extra precaution.

We both made our way into the bedroom. Marissa started to fumble with the buttons on my shirt when I pushed her onto the bed and crawled on top of her. Each kiss leaded to another. My lips moved from hers down to her jawline. I could hear slight moans escape her mouth. My hands made their way to the hem of her shirt to swiftly pull it off of her body. She played with my belt buckle, slowly taking it off inch by inch.

"Are you trying to tease me here." I said.

"Don't be so eager there tiger." She said smirking at me then finally taking the belt off and spinning around so she was straddling me.

She took her hands and explored every inch of my body. My skin felt cold to her touch, and her lips made their way back up to mine. Kiss by kiss. Touch by touch. It felt like we knew each other already. Everything seemed so natural. So simple. So perfect.

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We feel asleep in that position. Her laying in my arms. Nothing happened that night, but nothing needed to. We knew what we shared was special and nothing could change that.

a/n so. I am so sorry i haven't posted in like forever. I hope this chapter made it up to you tho! I made it extra long and extra drama and extra love and extra steamy for you guys! I hope you enjoyed ! go check out my second book "Bonfire Heart" :) love you guys and thank you so much for 3.67 k reads!!! let me know what you think <3

xoxo

marissa