Because she made me believe (ZAYN MALIK)

Lost & Found

This day would be noted in the story of my life as a chapter titled ‘ The day when everything went wrong’. It was past midnight , I had broken my two year engagement , I was lost in the middle of nowhere with a girl who trusted me to know the way. Not to forget I couldn’t call any of my friends since they were heavily drunk and there seemed to be no living soul around this block. The evil forces have officially set me as their target.

“Allana we are lost. The area is not familiar to me. I did not realize the direction we were walking in.” I told her. Blimey  when I am lost in my head how will I find the right direction while walking on the road.

“This is my fault. I am sorry.” She looked at me quietly and  sat down on a bench at the side of the road. Suddenly she started rambling “ It is all over. There is no way back now. My first day in London and I am lost. I wish I could have said goodbye to Niall but now that is a distant dream .Stranded in the middle of nowhere.”

Woah !! Seriously is she getting some panic attack because no sane person will behave in such a delusional manner especially when they are lost. I agree it is not an ideal situation to be in but she is being highly melodramatic.

“Allana I know we are lost. But it is not a big deal. We will find our way back. You need to calm down.” I tried to assure her .

“We will not be able to find our way back. Can’t you see it Zayn the fates have chosen to destroy my happiness”. She started sobbing hysterically placing her head between her hands.

Aha!! Just the last thing I needed on my plate : a girl weeping uncontrollably.

I sat close to her on the bench. Gently placing my finger under her chin I raised her head to look into her eyes brimming with tears. “Allana I crooned I know you are upset but this is not a big deal. Honestly horrendous things happen to people. We are not even aware of the battles people fight everyday but they never give up. So please don’t let such a small incident ruin your belief in the beauty of life. There is always a way back not only from here but even from those roads less travelled.”

Tears continued to stream down her cheeks as she shook her head. “No Zayn nothing  bad  should happen to me. My life needs to be perfect. Now I am lost forever. This cannot happen to me.”

“Listen to me ,I said cupping her cheek.You only get lost in life when you lose yourself. The battle of life is half won when you hold onto yourself in every circumstance you face. Sometimes life will be so crazy it won’t make any sense to you. Sometimes no matter how hard you try some puzzles will remain unsolved. Sometimes your head will hurt so much you will want it to burst .These times will come at intervals in life. Don’t let them break you. Don’t let them make you give up on your dreams. Everything happens for a reason. All you need is hope , faith , infinite belief and unconditional love. Hold onto them tightly and get on the roller coaster of life. Believe me you will enjoy every twist and turn , every high and low.”

If I never became a popstar I aspired to be an English teacher and from the speech I just gave I would be good one wouldn’t I ?.The intensity of my own words had startled me. Unknowingly the  knot in my gut had loosened.

I wiped her tears with my fingers. I knew she had attentively heard rather absorbed every word I had uttered. She smiled. “How do you feel now Zayn ?”

How did I feel now ?. I felt weightless not burdened by the chains of my broken relationship. The pangs of pain and anger which had erupted in my chest the moment Perrie had walked away seem to have been eradicated from my body. I felt tranquility within my soul.

“Never been better.” I grinned.

“I knew you would not open up to me regarding your breakup. You were right to do so. I cannot even call myself your friend. I just met you today. When I saw her walk away from you in the club, you looked crestfallen. Your  tweet confirmed my doubt that everything was not hunky-dory between you and Perrie. That is why I walked after you when you left the club. I am sorry Zayn , I shouldn’t have meddled in your personal matter. But even when we were walking I could sense invisible chains strangling you. I wanted to help you by hook or by crook.” said Allana.

She had left me speechless. It had not even been 24 hours of us knowing each other but it felt like she had known me for entirety. I was obstinate when it came to expressing my emotions. I never liked exposing my vulnerability to anybody. I despised unwanted sympathy. Being a  very private individual I loathed anyone invading my personal space. But Allana had healed me without crossing any boundaries.

“Zayn” , she said “ I knew you wouldn’t take my help so I ….”

“So you let me help myself.” It was the first time I had completed her sentence today. “Perrie was the love of my life or that was what I had thought so. I could never imagine her exiting my life. My perfect fairytale needed to have a happy ending. But everything happens for a reason right ?” She nodded and I continued “ I was living in state of denial that we were not growing apart but the truth of the matter is Perrie and me were over months ago. It does hurt. But if I held resentment in my heart and moped hopelessly over the  shards of my broken relationship  it would make me brittle me from within.

Her black eyes blazed into my hazel ones. “Hook or crook to help me ha.”I said. “You should be an actress.”

“I did act in my school play Alice in Wonderland in grade 7.” She boasted.

“Were you Alice?” I asked.

“I was the Mad Hatter. But mind you I won more accolades than the girl who played Alice.” We both laughed.

“Were your tears real Allana ?” I questioned.

“Let me say that I shed those tears on your behalf.” She grinned back.

I tried not to continuously stare at her adorably. She mesmerized me. Not only was she enchantingly beautiful at the outside but also on the inside as well.

“Now that our little drama and speech class is over Miss Francis let us utilize the GPS on my cell phone to help us find our way back.” I said getting up from the bench and offering her my hand. She gladly accepted it.

We trudged our way back to Funky Buddha in 30 minutes but honestly to me it felt just like a few minutes with Allana by my side. Luckily the boys were still there and with the help of a sober Danielle and me everybody was escorted back to their respective place of residence.

P.S. You may think that Allana became my friend but let me tell you that she became my confidante.

Author's note

I hope u guys enjoy this chapter as much as I did while writing it

Happy reading !!!!