Is This Toxic?(Spencer Reid x Reader)

19) Clueless

Spencer's POV:

I can't believe she's gone. I was supposed to be with her. I probably should have called her earlier. It's not my fault, I couldn't have known something was going to happen to her. I audibly groaned and Rossi looked over at me.

"So are you and Y/L/N. You know."

"No Rossi, I don't know. I'm sorry I didn't mean to come off as rude," I responded, "She's going to be fine. It's not going to be my fault if something did happen to her. Right? Right."

"How long have you guys been together?" he asked me as we pulled up to her building.

"We aren't together."

We enter the building and walk towards her apartment. I open the door with my key and Rossi gives me a look.

"If you guys aren't together, why do you have a key?" he asked with an amused face.

"In case of emergencies." I say as I walk into her apartment and start looking around. "Nothing seems out of place. Her purse and keys aren't where she usually leaves them, it doesn't look like she got to her apartment. Her shoes weren't by the door."

We walked around her apartment and then I walked into her office and saw there was a note on top of some envelopes.

Spencer,

If you're reading this something probably happened to me. I know I probably should have told you I thought I was being watched but I didn't. I wrote down a list of my exes or anyone I think would want to harm me. Get it to Garcia. I'm sure she can figure it out. I'll be ok I promise. It's not your fault. I know you'll try to blame yourself but don't.

She knew it was going to happen. She felt like someone was watching her, but she didn't tell me. She felt unsafe and she didn't think it was important to tell me about it. Under the note there was another piece of paper that had been stapled to it full of names. I looked back on her desk and picked up the two envelopes.

I opened the one on top and it was full of pictures of her. She was doing different things in all of them. In some she was alone but in others where there was clearly someone next to her, they were cut out, so it was just her in the picture. I picked up the other envelope and dumped it out. They were pictures of me and there was a note.

Stop being a little slut and come back to me. We both know I made you happier.

I called Rossi into the office and showed him the stuff. We put everything back into the envelopes and headed back to the Bureau. We were walking up to the car when I realized we hadn't found her purse or phone. "Rossi, wait." He stopped and I pulled out my phone.

"What are you doing?" he asks me curiously. "I'm calling her phone. Hotch said that her phone was at the building, but it wasn't in her apartment. So, it has to be somewhere. Her car is right there but it doesn't look like it's in there. Besides, the doors are locked which means she got out." I point out to him.

He nods at me, and I hear a small ringing sound. I started walking towards it. The sound was coming from the small ally next to the apartment. As I walk a little bit deeper into it, I see her bag and phone on the floor and immediately call Rossi over.

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"What did you guys find?" Hotch asks as we walk back into the briefing room.

"She left a list of her ex's and people who she thought might want to hurt her. And there's two envelopes full of pictures. One is full of pictures of her and the other with pictures of me and her. In the envelope with my pictures has a note that says 'Stop being a little slut and come back to me. We both know I made you happier.' We found her phone and purse in the small alley next to the apartment building." I say as I dump everything on the round table.

"Why would there be pictures of you? Are you guys together?" JJ asks.

"No. We're not together."

The team looks at me confused but right now I don't have time to explain what we do. I mean we aren't together. That's not what we wanted. We just fuck and hang out sometimes. Besides it would never work, we're always fighting, and we don't get along much so we basically just fuck. But I'm ok with it.

"Reid if there's something going on with you and Y/L/N I need to know." Hotch says.

"God don't you people understand! We aren't together. Hurry up and look at the stuff. If we don't hurry up, she could die!" I yell and storm out of the room.

I don't like her. I mean I do but not a lot and not like that. I'm just stressed because she was supposed to be with me. I probably could have prevented this if I just called her instead of waiting for her to call me.

I'm an asshole and if she dies it'll probably be my fault. But she won't die. I won't let her die. I will do everything in my power to get her back to the team. It won't be my fault because she won't be dead. Yes, that's what I'll do. I'll just work really hard to save her and it will work.

Y/N's POV:

"So, how long do you plan on keeping me?" you ask Joshua.

You refuse to call him your father. He was never a real father to you. The things he did to you were not things dads did, not what fathers did. He didn't deserve the title. Ever since your adoptive parents took you in you always referred to him as Joshua. Even before the Y/L/N's took you in, to other's you would always refer to him as Joshua. You never saw him as your father and you sure as hell weren't going to call him that now.

"As long as I please sweetheart." he responded with a smirk.

You weren't sure what he was doing. He was behind you and your neck couldn't turn that far. He was moving a bunch of stuff around. It was metal, maybe stuff to torture you with. You weren't sure but you knew whatever it was, was for his enjoyment and not yours.

You knew you hadn't been with him for long. Maybe a couple of hours. By now the team should know that you were missing. Spencer has probably found your note by now. Hopefully it wouldn't take them long to go through the list. When they didn't find anything, you were sure it wouldn't take Spencer that long to think of Joshua. At least you hoped it didn't.

While lost in thought you didn't notice Joshua had walked up behind you. From behind he grabbed your head and tilted it down. He moved your hair to the side and leaned down and whispered in your ear. "I'm going to need you to go to sleep for a little bit. When you wake up. The fun will finally begin."

Those were the last words you heard before you felt a pinch on your neck and darkness consumed you.

A/N: Spencer's a little emo boy. Poor man is traumatized. Hope you've enjoyed!

- L