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Chapter 49

* C H A R L O T T E*

I can feel the change in the air. I'm overthinking this while separation bit by bit. My walls are crumbling. My perfect high walls. These last few days have taught me that it feels right with Hero by my side. I have obviously missed him. No one can make me feel the way I feel when he's around me. I have never stopped loving him but I always assumed it was just because he was the one that got away. But that's not it. I just love Hero. I am in love with him and I don't see that changing any time soon. But am I ready for this again? If I were to give him an other chance, would things be different? Would we be different or would we make the same mistakes? Can I truly bring myself to trust him again? As I watch the meadows and hills pass by I ask myself these questions. Questions I never imagined I would ask myself. I was so sure that I was done with him and now I find myself wondering about him again. I don't know where he stands though. At the wedding he wanted me back but so much has changed between us since then, he might want to stay friends now. Maybe he just said all those things because he felt bad about what happened in America. Maybe he's relieved now. We're friends again, all is well. He can stop feeling guilty.

The drive up to the cathedral takes a few hours. We amuse ourselves by listening to a ridiculous podcast Jack picked. It's so ridiculous it's funny. At one point my tummy is hurting because I can't stop laughing. The drive is worth it though. The scenery is beautiful, the company is great and I can truly say I am happy. Once we arrive at the cathedral I am in awe again. It is amazing! As most things in this country it is surrounded by nature which gives it a magical touch. I feel like I am in a Jane Austen novel. We should definitely visit Bath as well. It's where Jane Austen used to live for a while, it's where Bridgerton was filmed.

"Hey Liz, can we visit Bath next week?"

"Oh my god, yes! We can even have afternoon tea at the Jane Austen museum!"

Hero and Jack sigh very loudly.

We take a few selfies and stroll around the cathedral first.

"This is amazing," I say to Hero as we walk behind Jack and Lizzie. Our hands are intertwined again. It's surprising how naturally that comes to us.

"It sure is!"

I turn to him and smile. He returns my smile. It's a true smile. Not the smile he gives to reporters. It's my favorite Hero smile.

"Thank you," he suddenly says.

"What did I do?"

"Thank you for this. You know, I never imagined this possible. You and me, acting all civil around each other. So thank you for hearing me out at the wedding and for sharing these amazing few days with me. Even if it is as friends."

I don't know what to say. My heart starts pounding in my chest. Maybe this is the time to talk to him about my doubts.

"Hero, I-"

His phone interrupts me. He takes it out of his pocket and frowns.

"Sorry, I need to take this."

"No worries!"

Hero picks up the phone and walks away from me.

This makes me wonder. What would we do in the real world? The past few days we have been in this perfect little bubble without any influences from outside. What will happen in the real world? I shake my head and decide to stop wondering. All I can do is enjoy the days we have left here.

Hero joins us inside the cathedral. He seems agitated.

"Are you okay?" I whisper.

"Yeah, of course."

Maybe it's because he's whispering but it sure as hell kind of felt like he snapped at me. I look at him and I see his jaw tighten. He's upset about something, I can tell. He's distant. I take his hand to calm him down but he jerks his hand out of mine and walks over to Jack. What the hell?

(Hi everyone! I am so sorry for not updating lately. I just got a new puppy and she needed all my attention. She is a Japanese Akita and she's very very cute! But I AM BACK! Next chapter up tomorrow!)