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Chapter 59

*C H A R L O T T E*

During our lunch Hero is his charming self and I can tell he has won over Kat and her brother. They laugh at his stories and listen to his every word. I know Kat has a big crush on Hero since she saw After and Tiago probably just thinks he's cool. His stories does sound cool for us outsiders. The Hollywood glamour is so far from our simple daily routine on this beautiful island. Luckily Fabio still seems to be on my side. Sometimes he slightly touches my hand or winks at me just to let me know he's there for me. I'm quiet during our meal because I honestly don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to feel. I am over this. We keep going around in circles. And why is that? Love shouldn't be this hard. Honestly I'm also a bit pissed Hero walked into my perfect little bubble here. Madeira was the one place that wasn't full of memories and now that's spoiled too. It was the only place I could start over and make fresh memories, make new friends, build up a new life and I feel I won't be able to do that now.

Kat's voice wakes me up from my thoughts.

"I'm afraid I have to go," Kat says with regret on her face. "I have to go back to work."

"I should probably go too," I hastily say, glad to be able to escape. "I have a group of tourists in an hour." I know the island so well that I don't actually need to prepare to guide some people but I just don't want to be here anymore. I need to get my head straight.

"That's okay," Hero adds. "My agent send me some scripts to read so I guess that's work too."

"Maybe you should walk Hero back to the hotel, Char," Kat says. "I need to rush because I can't be late again."

Before I can answer she has left the restaurant. I look at Tiago and Fabio with yet another pleading look on my face. Surely they won't leave me! Fabio wants to say something but Tiago cuts in.

"Come on Fab, let's go to your bar and start setting up for tonight." He grabs Fabio's arm and all Fabio can do is cast me a helpless look before Tiago drags him out of the restaurant. Grr, what the hell is wrong with that family!

"You look angry," Hero breaks the silence as we walk back to the hotel through the streets of the old town.

"To be honest, Hero, I am," I sigh. "What are you doing here?"

"I am here to tell you that I made a mistake."

"Look, we tried, everyone knows we did. Hell, all we did was try from the moment we met and we keep ending here. It's not meant to be, we are not meant to be. You know how broken I was and this place, these people finally started to heal me. It was the one place in the world where I could even begin to heal and find myself again. The once place that wasn't filled with memories of you and of us. So why would you ruin that?"

I take a deep breath after my rant.

Hero looks at me with sad eyes.

"That was not what I was trying to do."

I know he's sorry for what happened, I don't doubt that but I also know it will keep happening because it has happened before. Not once but multiple times. Why would this be different? It lasted like one whole day before it happened again.

"I know you're sorry Hero, I really do but I also know it won't change. It has happened before and it will happen again. And to be fair, you shouldn't apologize for putting your career first. You're an amazing actor with a great future ahead, you don't have to be sorry for that," I say to ease his pain. Also, I mean it. I know why Hero does what he does and he's right to do so. But I can't go back to that life because I know Melany is part of that world. She'll always be there. And there will be others just like her. Hero is just too friendly to realize they all want something from him.

"Charlotte, please, I know I made a mistake but please just give me one last chance."

I slowly bow my head and shake it.

"You've used up your chances," I slowly say with a sad tone.

We reach the hotel.

"I won't give up," Hero says cheerfully. I snap my head back up and look at his face. He's not joking! And he actually smiles!

"You'll see, I'll prove it to you!" Whistling he walks away and I stare after him. What the hell? I am very confused right now.

I stay in the hotel area because I'm meeting the group of tourists there. I take a few deep breaths to take in all the smells and calm down. I can do this. I can show Hero around the island in the next few days and maybe we can end this thing with a few beautiful memories. Soon enough he'll realize this is for the better and maybe we can act normal around each other by the times the twins are born.