Only for you. Miles Fairchild x reader

Beautiful boy

A/n so I just now realized that I didn't finish the chapter about their anniversary.
I'm so mad at myself.
But they basically went to the movies, walked around town and had a nice time to theirselves.
Also happy late birthday Will!
Random but listen to beautiful boy by John Lennon

Y/n POV
Fairchild residence

Miles was playing with Nell on floor so I decided to go upstairs and talk to Noah for a second.

I knocked on the door a scream saying I could come in from the other side.

"I have a question." I stated shutting the door

"If you're asking me for sexual favors I'm not the one to ask." He said not taking his eyes away from his phone

"Noah, shut the fuck up and listen to me."

"What?" He turned to look at me

"Do you think Miles is being really quiet today?
He looks sad." I fiddled with my fingers

"Y/n...I hate to break it to you but he's always quiet dumbass."

"No..I mean like, more quiet." I asked visibly upset, not taking my eyes off my fingers

"He's fine y/n, he's just a dorkish quiet kid." Noah insisted

"If you say so." I sighed swinging around and closing the door

Flora was currently at Penny's for a 'girls day'
And Noah hasn't came out his room since last night when we dressed Miles up, he only comes out to get food.

(Ok, but me)

So it was just Miles, Nell and I.

I walked down the stairs slowly and nervously,
I walked into the living room but before I did I listened to what Miles was telling Nell.

"I'm sorry." He kissed her head

"I love you" he said and she laughed

I walked in and made presence known.
I sat down on the floor by Miles.

"Can you watch Nell for a second Bug? I'll be right back." He asked

I nodded. So much for asking if everything was ok.

"What's wrong with Daddy?" I asked Nell as if she knew

I waited and waited for Miles to come back for 10 minutes.

I just played with Nell until she got bored, 6 almost 7 month olds get so bored so easily.
With Miles she never got bored, he kept her happy and busy.

"Come on Nell." I picked her up and placed her on my hip

I went upstairs and looked in Noah's room to see if he was there, he wasn't.
I went to our room and he wasn't in there but the bathroom door was shut.
I knocked on the door to see what was going on

"Yeah?" He shouted through the door,
His voice cracked and very stuffy

"Are you ok?" I asked placing my head on the door

"Yeah. Why?"

"You've been very quiet and you sound like you're crying." I replied

"No I'm ok."

"You sure?"

"Yeah, I'll be down in a minute."

"O-ok, I'll be in the kitchen." I said and walked away not believing a word he said

I sat Nell down in the bed highchair and began feeding her, more like her attempting to feed herself.
I just let her do whatever and feed herself,
I sat my head in my hand and sighed feeling bad.

"Whatcha eating?" Miles asked walking in casually and looking at Nell
His face was all red and puffy.

"I'm gonna put her to sleep but I'll be back, ok?"

"Mmh" he hummed and kissed our cheeks

I walked upstairs and cleaned her up and put her in a more comfy outfit to sleep in.
It wasn't actually time for a nap yet but I wanted to put her to sleep sooner so I could talk to Miles without any interruptions.
She fell asleep pretty fast with the help of her bottle but she only knows what 'baba' means.
I laid her in her crib and went downstairs to see Miles not in the living room or kitchen and that's really the only places he goes other than the game room or bedroom.
So I'm guessing he's in the game room.

I walked into see Miles crying on the couch, he knows I don't go in there unless somebody else is in there playing with me.

"What's wrong?" I asked worried

Once he saw me he quickly wiped his tears

"Nothing, I-it's fine." I smiled.

Fake. That was a fake smile.

I gave him the mom look but nothing, he didn't say anything.

"Miles." I scolded

"Everything's fine, it's just something small." He insisted

"Well if it's making you cry then it's obviously not small." I pushed

He just looked up at me and I saw his eyes water more.

I pulled his into a hug and he bursted into tears.
His head was against my stomach while I was kissing his head.

"What's wrong baby?" I asked

"I feel like a bad dad and bad everything." He said with tears running fast down his cheeks like they were racing to see which one would fall first.

"You're not at all. Nell loves you more than anything and we all love you." I said a rubbed his head,
His hair running through my fingers.

"Are you sure?" He asked looking up at me

"Yes! Why what's making you think otherwise?" I asked

"I don't know, just a lot of things on my mind y'know. People in my school used to be scared of me.
Am I really that scary?" He asked crying even harder

"No, hun. They're just assholes. Sure you can be scary when you want but I don't see you to be scary." I said honestly. I mentally facepalmed for saying that though.

"I feel like I'm a terrible father, and that Nell's gonna grow up to hate me."

"She's not my love. She loves you more than anybody."

"Ok." He said unsure

"Cuddles?" He asked

I nodded and we went back upstairs, he laid down while I was putting my hair up.
(If it's long enough)

He did the little grabby things and I laid with him for the rest of the afternoon.