Runaway | Kurapika x Reader

Chapter 6 - Alone in my Mind

Antonio crushed my satellite, yet he let me hear everything. It doesn't make sense. He gave me the date he'd be coming into town—I could flee at any given time. Just what was his goal? He wants to kill me, right? So why would he let me know that?

I no longer had any interest in stargazing for the rest of the night. My thoughts were everywhere. I wanted to know what the Power Pentagon was. I wanted to know Antonio's objective.

My mother mentioned that not only children who are too powerful compared to their parents were killed, but those who were far too inferior as well. Antonio is still alive and in contact with my parents, so does that mean I'm more powerful than him? I now know that I'm more powerful than both my parents. That's why they want me dead. If I really am superior to all of them, that meant I could easily kill them, right?

Even after all the thinking my brain was doing, one thought kept replaying in my mind, over and over.

My family wants me dead. My family wants me dead. My family wants me dead.

This isn't normal. No normal person has a family that wishes something as far as death upon them.

I let a stream of tears drip from my eyes, and this time I let them fall until there were no more.

I'd been so used to bottling up my emotions my entire life. My father said emotions can make a powerful person that much weaker. However, no one was around me. I was alone on the roof. There was no one to scold me, and no one to tell me I wasn't allowed to feel. No one could judge me either—that's unless the stars above were conscious. But they weren't.

My family wishes I were dead. It's hard enough to say that there really is someone out there who would smile as I took my last breath, dance on my gravestone, or throw a party as I lie dead instead of a funeral. It's about a million times harder to say that someone is your own blood. That made me feel so many things at once that it'd be impossible to describe with just one emotion. I wanted to know so much more regarding the situation.

Another thing I wanted to know was, frankly, just more about Kurapika. Anything more about Kurapika. Sure, I'd only known him for four days, but it felt longer. There was something about him that was so alluring and I couldn't put my finger on it. I knew nothing about him, yet he had a brief summary of my life given to him without me even telling him. He was fairly hard to read. I never knew what was on his mind, let alone any kind of idea about his past or his present. From what my instinct was telling me, though, he seemed to always have a melancholy interior. He could be smiling or laughing, and still—a sense of misery seemed to be masked.

Or maybe, (Y/n), you're overanalyzing everything as usual.

Regardless, I wanted to get to know him better.

I let out a long sigh and sat in place for a moment before climbing back into the mansion. The moonlight peeked through the window, and I admired it for a moment. I took a long, steamy shower and got into my pajamas. When I was finally ready for bed, I slipped underneath the comforter and grabbed my phone from the nightstand.

I knew Kurapika wasn't angry at me for getting frustrated on Friday, but I still felt a bit guilty for being difficult. It was the first time we hung out and I got a bit snappy with him a couple of times. Maybe I should apologize.

Or maybe I just want an excuse to talk to someone.

I pressed the call button next to his contact, which still read 'Blondie', although I knew his name. The phone rang a few times before his voice cut through.

"Hello?" he said. His voice was a bit deeper and rougher than usual. I assumed I woke him up.

"Did I wake you?"

"No—well, yes, but I don't mind. Is everything okay?"

"Oh, okay. Nothing's wrong, I just wanted to apologize for being irritable the other day. It was a... stress thing, you could say."

"Please, no worries. That was nothing. I completely understa..." a yawn interrupted his sentence.

"Are you sure I shouldn't just call back tomorrow?"

"No, no, now is fine. Was there anything else you wanted to speak about?"

"Hm... Well- uh, would you maybe want to tag along with my friends and me next Wednesday? We'd be going to a casino."

That question was completely impulsive. I hadn't even thought of it before the call, but now that I've asked, it may be fun.

"Next Wednesday? That's Halloween, is it? I'll see if I'm free. In the meantime, we could chat over breakfast tomorrow. The time and place is your choice."

"That sounds great." I smiled into my phone. "I'll text you the time and location so neither of us forgets."

"Okay. Goodnight, (Y/n). Sleep well."

"Goodnight, Blondie."

He let out a quiet chuckle as I hung up the phone. I stared up at the ceiling for a few seconds before sending the text to Kurapika. I set my alarm and rolled onto my side, lying still for a few minutes in hopes of falling asleep. As soon as I was about to drift off, a thought flew to the front of my mind.

Fiona.

Serene had mentioned something about my older sister possibly moving away, but she wasn't too sure. That most likely meant she hadn't seen her around in a while. I wondered if she was okay. I thought back to my conversation with Antonio.

"Hold on... None of this is adding up. You're twenty? Wouldn't that make you the same age as Fiona? Did Dad have some sort of mistress?"

"She was my twin. Oh how I miss her..."

She was my twin.

Was.

The sentence was like a broken record. I tried to push it to the back of my mind. I didn't want to come to terms with the possibilities soaring around in my head. No matter how hard I tried to dismiss the topic, though, it made its way back.

Something happened to Fiona and I refuse to rest until I figure out what that something is.