Runaway | Kurapika x Reader

Chapter 34 - The Truth

a/n: hi! i know it has been a long time since this story was last updated. if you haven't already, you can look at the announcement i made earlier that explains the reasons why. but, runaway is back in production! this story WILL get finished. i promise. for now, enjoy this chapter :)

I looked over my shoulder to see Kurapika gazing at me with regret in his eyes. I said nothing.

"I made a mistake," he continued. "And I'm sorry."

Rolling my eyes, I began to walk toward his SUV. "I'm pretty sure we've already established that you think of it as a mistake. You don't have to remind me."

As I started to open the passenger door, unexpected words stopped me in my tracks. "No, (Y/n), listen to me. Kissing you wasn't a mistake. Running away from you was."

I removed my hand from the door handle and averted my gaze back to Kurapika. "Why did you do it then? I want you to tell me the truth. The whole truth."

He sighed and looked at the pavement for a moment before taking a few steps forward and peering down at me. "I didn't kiss you just to kiss you. There's a reason I did it. It's just that..."

I raised an eyebrow and watched as an illegible expression washed over Kurapika's face. "What?"

He lowered his head and spoke lowly, "If I admit how I feel about you, it will hurt incredibly worse when the day comes that I lose you."

And there it was. He had finally admitted how he felt. It was no direct, passionate confession, but hearing him even say those words was enough for me. My anger immediately melted away. I couldn't be mad at him any longer because I completely understood how he felt. I gave him a look of empathy and reached for his hand, rubbing my thumb against the back of it. "I think it's the opposite."

"What do you mean?" he asked as he returned his gaze to mine.

"If you would just allow this to happen then you wouldn't feel regret whenever that day does come. If you keep your feelings locked away until the day you lose me, you're only going to wish you'd come to terms with your feelings sooner."

Silence overcame the environment. I watched as Kurapika processed my words. I knew that I was right, and no argument would come from him. Eventually, he took a deep breath and looked down at our hands. He locked his fingers with mine and peered back at me. "You're right."

I smiled. "I know I am."

He stared at me for a moment before his face shifted. His voice broke as he whispered. "I'm really sorry, (Y/n)."

I pulled him into a hug. "It's okay."

"No, it isn't," he argued. "I must have made you feel awful."

"A little," I said with a stifled laugh. I adjusted my face in his neck and ran my fingers through his blonde hair. "I thought there was something wrong with me that made you realize you didn't feel that way."

He pulled back and studied my features, causing my face to warm up. "There's not a single thing wrong with you, physically or otherwise. You're the most beautiful, smart, caring, and brave person I've ever met. I'd be a fool not to see that."

I grinned shyly and glanced back at Kurapika's SUV. "Is this your way of making it up to me? Flattering me?"

"Of course not," he defended himself with a lifted face.

I chuckled before gazing up at the sky and releasing a sigh. "So... what now?"

In my peripheral vision, I saw Kurapika look down at me and then at the ground. "I'm not sure... I've been thinking and I don't think it would be wise to start anything right now with everything that's happening. I want to so damn bad, but I think we should wait until things cool down and this is all over."

Dissatisfied with his response, I stood stiff and faced away from him. "Oh."

"Trust me, (Y/n), I want things to work. But I don't think that's possible until we finish this."

I pulled open the door and sat down in the passenger seat. "No, you're right. I understand."

He gave me a regretful downturned smile and closed my door before walking around the vehicle and getting inside. The car started up and we began to ride back to the Aquila mansion. Sadness tingled throughout my body as I stared out the window, watching the city. I knew that he was right. It wouldn't be smart to start a relationship with so much chaos surrounding us. It would be best to wait. Still, I so desperately wanted to be with him. I just wanted to be his and for him to be mine. I hoped it would be worth the wait.

Shortly, we were back at the mansion. We stood in the hallway and I looked ahead to my bedroom. Kurapika entered the guest bedroom behind me. As I was about to enter my room, I felt his presence once again. I turned to see him standing with his duffel bag.

"...Would you mind?"

"Not at all," I smiled and walked into my room, Kurapika following me. I got ready for bed and lay down, covering myself up as I waited for Kurapika. Soon enough, he climbed into bed and dozed off next to me. I observed his perfectly sculpted face as he slept.

So we can still sleep in the same bed, but we can't be in a relationship just yet? He makes absolutely no sense.

I huffed and closed my eyes.

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"(Y/n)."

I shuffled as my name was repeated multiple times. Eventually, I rolled over to where the voice was coming from and opened my eyes. The handsome face I'd fallen in love with looked at me with sweet eyes. My eyes traveled down to Kurapika's hands, which were holding a plate of chocolate chip waffles.

"What's this?" I asked through a giggle as I sat up and against my headboard.

He offered me the plate. "I made you breakfast."

I took the plate from him and then he handed me a fork and a butter knife. "So is this your way of apologizing? Breakfast in bed?"

"Part of it," he answered. "Trust me, I have big plans to make up for what I did. If you feel like leaving the house today then I could execute those plans. If not, then we can do whatever you want at home as well. It's all up to you. You're the boss."

"I'm the boss?" I laughed and began cutting up my waffles. "Well... I would like to see what you had in mind for this big apology."

"Then let's go," Kurapika said. "...Whenever you're ready of course. I don't want to rush you."

I gave him a funny look. "You know, you don't have to walk on eggshells around me all because you made a mistake. I'm not going to get mad at you or anything."

He walked around to the other side of the bed, sitting down next to me. "I know. I just think you deserve to be treated like a princess today."

"Do I not deserve to be treated like a princess every day?" I joked.

"Oh, you do," he answered playfully. We both laughed and continued to talk while I ate my breakfast in bed. Once I was done, we both began to get ready for the big day ahead of us. I had no idea what Kurapika had in mind, but what I did know was that I couldn't wait a second longer to find out.

I stood next to the front door and Kurapika opened it for me. He gestured for me to go ahead, and so I did. "What a gentleman. This better be good."