Ghostly Heartbreak | Luke Patterson

Chapter 20

* This chapter uses the song 'Plastic Hearts' by the one and only Miley Cryus. Also this chapter is very lyric based, BUT i do write in between most lyrics to convey Nova's feelings in that moment. Enjoy:)*

I closed my eyes as I heard my background music begin, and let out a breath that I was holding. Opening my eyes, I was relieved to see that Luke was still at the front of the stage, supporting me with his smile. The way he was staring at me was as if he was admiring me. My heart fluttered at the sight, I just wish he could feel everything he made me feel.

Hello
The sunn place for shady people
A crowded room where nobody goes
You can be whoever you wanna be here
And oh, I've been livin' at the Chateau
Shouldn't drive, but I should really go home
I don't even know 'em, but they won't leave here

Frightened by my own reflection
Desperate for a new connection

I looked at Luke. It's true because for a while I felt like I couldn't get anything more from my relationship Danny. We were both stuck in a relationship, both hoping that the spark would reignite, but it never did. The moment that Luke poofed into my life, I felt that spark. The want to live, fully again. Not just be constantly high or drunk, but truly happy.

I feel like Luke could be the light that I need in my life, but life is unfair. The one person that makes me want feel loved and be touched by, everything that I should feel in a relationship with someone I'm in love with should be.. but he's dead. And the mere fact burns my already shattered heart into ashes. Why can't I get a happy ending that my mom always told me I would get? Why can't it be with him?

Pull you in, but don't get too close
Love you now, but not tomorrow
Wrong to steal, but not to borrow
Pull you in, but don't you get too close

If either of us get too close to the other, it would end in heartbreak. We can't get what we want, that's even if he wants what I want.

My dream of being a rock star wouldn't be nothing if I didn't have someone to love me the way I want to be loved. I want to be loved by Luke, not anyone else.

I picked up the mic and jumped down into the crowd as the chorus came up, eyes glancing at Luke as I bit my lower lip. His face tinted a light shade of red as he pushed himself on the stage as he watched me dance and jump around. Instantly, everyone in the crowd began swaying to the song.

Some laughing in enjoyment, some videotaping me, others dancing with their friends or partners, and others just clapped as I moved my hair crazily. Head bouncing to the music as I sang, finally letting go of all the stress I've be under for the last couple of days. This was my dream of being a rock star. This is all I ever wanted.

I've been California dreamin'
Plastic hearts are bleedin'
Keep me up all night (Keep me up)
Keep me up all night (All night)
Lost in black hole conversation
Sunrise suffocation
Keep me up all night (Keep me up)
Keep me up all night

I just wanna feel (Feel)
I just wanna feel somethin (Feel somethin' now)
But I keep feeling nothin' all night long
All night long
All night long
All night long

Memories of the restless nights that I've had in the past three months. Nights that the pain became to much to bear so I took drugs to numb myself from everything. When in reality, the only feeling that I really needed to feel at the time was.. love. My grandma was able to give me all the love that I needed, but even her love and support wasn't enough to get me through my grieving. Luke has been there for me, even when we have fought. I needed him more than I let on.