Meant to Be

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

“Miss? Miss, are you alright? Miss! Miss, you’re holding up the line!”

I snapped out of my vision, and as soon as I noticed my surroundings I yanked my hand back from the cashier, the receipt in my grasp. “Sorry everyone.” I apologized, looking and seeing a line had formed and people were giving me concerned looks.

“She’s been standing and staring for ten minutes.” I heard an elderly woman grumble to her companion, “And all she says is sorry?”

I sighed, grabbing the items I bought before scurrying away in the direction of the girls’ restroom.

The last thing I heard was her companion saying, “Poor girl. Cut her some slack, Edna. The girl’s probably pregnant. Did you see what she was buying?” I shut the single bathroom closed and locked it.

Biting my lip, I tried to stabilize my emotions that were going haywire. I’m sure almost every girl has gone through this moment. The moment being when she drives out three towns over, goes into the nearest gas station, and buys some… pregnancy kits.

Other girls have done this before, Luna. You’re not alone. Somewhere out there, another girl is in another bathroom. She’s going through what you are. If that girl is brave enough to do it, you can do it, too!

I opened up the three different pregnancy tests I bought, and I set them out neatly in a line. I then took the two liter bottle of water and, with sweaty hands, took a minute to unscrew it. As soon as the bottle was open, I began downing it. Anybody else who wants to use this bathroom will be in for a little wait….

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Time was up.

I turned around and leaned over the sink to look down at the three sticks that would finally answer my questions. The question as to why I have been having morning sickness so much. The question as to why I am having some weird cravings. The question as to why I was having weird mood swings. I didn’t feel happy as I looked to the boxes to figure out how to read the results; but yet I didn’t feel sad about it. In reality, I didn’t know what to think as I picked each test up one at a time.

Positive. My breath hitched. Positive. My eyes widened. And Positive.

“Oh. My. God.” I breathed, unable to believe what I was seeing. Then it came to me, and I gasped. “That was what I forgot.” I suddenly realized the truth, and I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I raised a hand and shakily placed it over my tummy, not quite believing it. “I forgot to take birth-control pills!” I blurted, and looked down at my stomach. “Oh my god!”

I’m a mom! I lifted up my shirt to get a better look…. But there was no bump. Did the tests get it wrong? I tried looking at my belly from different angles, but yet it didn’t seem like I was sporting another life form inside me. Do I really have a baby growing inside me? I wondered as I dropped my shirt and threw away the pregnancy tests. I ran my fingers through my hair and stood in front of the wooden door as I tried to think…. And then I eventually came to an agreement with myself; I wasn’t going to believe it until I saw the baby bump myself!

I held my head high and finally unlocked the door, stepping out and into the store. My eyes warily looked both ways, and I quietly walked away from the door. My heart was pounding loudly as I still tried to come to terms with everything, and I barely remembered to keep up my walls so that Nate couldn’t hear my thoughts.

“I am so leaving!” I said to myself, hurrying in the direction where I believe the entrance was.

“There’s that girl again! What do you think her tests said?” I felt like dying as I heard the not-so-quiet whisper. I didn’t dare look in that direction, and I instead kept moving forward.