Devotion [L. S.]

5

Trigger warning: eating disorder

Louis Tomlinson

"So, I'm Harry, Harry Styles", the curly boy spoke after I handed him his phone back.

I just didn't know how to form words at this moment, so I was very glad he was the one to speak first.

"Oh, I know", I then just blurt out.

What the hell Louis, you're not supposed to know the name of a boy that's 2 years younger than you.

I expected Harry to look a little confused on how a guy that's supposed to be in college knows his name, but to my surprise, he didn't look suspicious in any way.

I still try to give an explanation not evolving around me having a crush on him for a year now.

"Lottie, my sister. She told me all about you."

"Oh, she did?", now he did seem surprised.

"What did she tell you about me?", Harry asked with a little grin on his face.

"Just, you know, that you're Harry and that you were with some blonde girl, your girlfriend", I finish the end of the sentence a little more quietly.

"Ow, yeah... Taylor", Harry adds while looking down at the floor.

"I suppose, yeah", the conversation kind of went silent.

Then I realized I haven't even said my name yet.

"Oh, I'm Louis by the way."

"I know too', Harry answers, finally looking me in the eye again.

God his eyes were so beautiful. They were definitely green, but with a little bit of yellow around the middle. And a darker shade of green in a perfect circle around his irises.

" Also Lottie", he then adds with the same cheeky grin on his face, that's when the dimples appeared.

He's just perfect.

"Oh no, what did she tell you?", I ask with a look of horror on my face.

Lottie and Zayn were the only 2 that knew about my crush on Harry. I was also the closest with Lottie out of all of my siblings.

If she said a word about anything I was gonna kill her.

Harry just started laughing, the most beautiful laugh, but that didn't matter in this moment.

"Harry, what did she tell you?", I tried not to sound too eager, but I think I failed at that attempt... bad.

"Euhm, nothing much... just your name and that you came out as gay this summer, I'm happy for you by the way", Harry also finished that sentence a little more quiet than he started it.

After that, he broke eye contact again and I immediately felt lost.

"Oh well, thank you. It wasn't easy", I don't know why I'm telling him this the first time we're even talking.

"Were you scared of how people would react?", Harry asked, but it sounded more like a mumble.

"I guess I was, yeah. But everyone took it very well, and well... some people already knew", I answer honestly.

"Well that's great", Harry adds while still looking at the floor.

"Be happy with your parents and friends, some people wouldn't take it this well", Harry mumbles.

"Yeah... I guess some people wouldn't", I add suspiciously.

Why would he say that? It's normal that not everyone would be as okay with it, they should be, but that's just society. But why would he refer to that?