Devotion [L. S.]

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Hi! (I can already smell the comments on this one, but go ahead ahah)

So there will be a lot of mentions of different rooms in Louis' (gigantic) house in this chapter, so I will include pictures along the way. I tend to avoid this as much as possible, so your mind can really like fill in the story by itself. But sometimes I will include pictures, just to give you guys an idea. Hope you enoy!

Harry Styles

This is the overall house, I know it's huge. I might have overdone this one a little bit ahah :), but who cares?

We spent the rest of the afternoon talking and just laying there on Louis' bed. I didn't know what had come over me for me to just burst into the boys' home and then crash down onto his bed. I'm just so different around Louis. I don't know why and I for sure don't know if I like it yet. 

And this is what I imagine Louis' bedroom to be. 

I still can't wrap my head around how this much can possibly happen in just 3 days. I practically came out to my best friend, well he kind of made me, but I was happy he did, because I wouldn't have been able to do it myself. 

I broke up with the girl I was, if you asked me about a month ago, for sure going to marry. I saw her as the mother of my kids and now that's just all gone and I'm terrified. I'm scared of so many things at this moment, that I just had to turn it off. 

I couldn't even start to think about what all of these sudden decisions meant, or were going to mean in the future. The problem isn't just Taylor and me being scared to death I hurt her bad, it's also my dad. 

Just me telling him that Taylor and I broke up, will make hell break loose. But once he finds out the reason, I'm dead meat and I'm very, very serious. So that's why I turned it all off, just for now. I decided to just turn all of my emotions off. 

Well not all of them, just the unpleasant ones, there were many of them at this moment. I know I won't be able to persist this for a long time, but just for now. And it kind of went automatically. I've never done this before, just this not caring. I've always been taught to care about everyone, everyone other than me.