Devotion [L. S.]

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This one took some time, sorry! :)  It is the longest one I've written so far, though!

Enjoy!!

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Louis Tomlinson

Only one more street and I'm back home. I just discovered that Harry's house is less than a mile away from mine, so I could easily walk from his to mine. And it could actually be a training. God, football, I haven't thought about it in so long. I miss it, very bad. 

I miss running around that pitch after that stupid ball, just forgetting everything. Football unlocks this special kind of happiness and well, until I met Harry, it was the only thing that could bring me that kind of happiness. 

On that pitch, I feel accepted, appreciated and most importantly, I feel like an equal. Being an openly gay boy with an eating disorder, although nobody, but Harry and Zayn knows, isn't always easy. In fact, it's not at all.

That's why I built up this tuff boy image. To make sure nobody got to see what's hidden underneath that shell of hardness. I trust Zayn, with my whole heart, but that took time, years in fact. 

That's why it's so fucking terrifying to have met this boy, who just got to know all of me, by looking into my eyes. It's frustrating, but most of all very scary. This kind of trust I feel for Harry is none other than dangerous. 

Harry looked deeper into me in those 4 days than Zayn ever has. Harry knows, he knows it all. The only thing that's keeping me from being completely frantic about the whole situation is the fact that I know he feels the same way. 

And for all I know, it's even worse with him. All those feeling that he must be experiencing right now, knowing that they won't be accepted. God, the boy must be going through hell right now. I know that I'm very lucky to have such an amazing, understanding and wealthy family.  

2 more houses and I'm home. I look at my phone to check the time. 7.45 in the morning, I should probably head straight to school, which starts at 8.

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Zayn drove me and Gigi to school, the second I stepped out of the vehicle, they were already gone. I don't even want to know where they went. That is the downside of only kind of having 1 friend, because all of my friends from last year left for college. 

Well, I guess I have Harry now. Where is he? That's when I see him standing on the other side of campus. My heart rate immediately picks up a little as I start walking towards him. Next to the curly boy was a blond one. That must be Niall, Harry told me all about him. He was kinda cute, yeah he was. 

Harry was wearing some black jeans and a purple Jack Wills hoodie and on top of that, he threw on the most adorable bear hat. It looked like you could fit an entire army underneath that hat, but on Harry, it looked simply adorable.