LOST | KTH (feat. JJK & PJM) ✔️

LOST 19: Her Hope

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I couldn't find the words to describe the way I was feeling. It was a very complicated mixture of shock, for sure, surprise, confusion, anger, excitement, happiness, and lastly, just a little bit of hope.

I was NOT going crazy.

"Broken up with Jungkook? What do you mean by that?" I asked after awhile of silence, now doing my best not to show him any of my emotions. I was acting cool.

Hoseok sighed and shook his head as we both started walking together. "He hasn't shown up too since that last business trip he had with his father. You told me about it, remember?" I just nodded my head. "Your phone numbers aren't working anymore even. Are you two fine?"

"Yeah, we're still together." I shrugged my shoulders so that I wouldn't sound suspicious or show him how much I needed him to continue.

"Are you sure You are fine, Raina?" He asked, so much care and concern evident in his voice.

No. No. Don't feel sorry for yourself. Don't start crying. Don't remember how you've been played as if you were a goddamn toy for almost a year.

Be strong, darling.

Was it really me not scolding myself as usual and going easy on it?

"I am." I turned to him for a second, giving him a small smile just to receive a much bigger and brighter one in return. "I just needed to take a break from everything, you know."

"Ugh, tell me about it." His face grimaced slightly, surely having memories of our college. "Those bitches in our classes are sadists, I swear. They love to see our pain."

I couldn't help but giggle, from my heart, at what he just said. "You haven't changed the bit, Hobi." I sighed softly, taking a glance at him one more time just to make sure that I wasn't talking to myself.

He was still there. He was real.

"Huh? Why would I change?" He scoffed, causing me to chuckle again.

THAT was a best friend. Not that hooker that they wanted me to trust as one.

"That's my car." I mumbled quietly, so we stopped walking and I turned to him. "It was amazing to see you, Hoseok." I spoke sincerely, and I know he was confused, but that didn't matter.

If I tried to explain anything to him, he would be even more confused.

"Aww, you look so sad, but you don't wanna talk about it." He mumbled in a cute voice while hugging me, causing me to chuckle one last time, dampening his shirt with a couple of tears that accidentally fell from from my eyes.

"We will talk later, okay?" I said, being so uncertain by the end of my words.

"Sure, bitch." I smiled, literally loving the word from him because it just told me that he was still the same person I used to know. "Wait!" He suddenly exclaimed, checking my face carefully. "You look so different and-When the hell did your hair grow that long?!"

I smiled again, feeling like I just wanted to throw myself in his arms and cry all day.

Again, I was not a crazy person.

"Extension. Just wanted a little change." I answered shortly, and he nodded his head in understanding.

"Alright then." He said then gave me one last small hug. "So, will I see you at college the upcoming year, Sweets?"

"Haven't you graduated already?" I asked in confusion.

"When you didn't show up, I decided to delay it to graduate with you." He shrugged his shoulders, and I instinctively looked at him in suspicion, which made him roll his eyes at me. "Okay! I fucking failed."

"No wonder you're 3 years older than me and still studying in collage." I shook my head, smiling when I heard him chuckle as if he just did a wonderful job at something. "However, get ready because I'm gonna stand up on your head for the entire year until we get the hell out of this shithole."

I felt like myself so much; it's been awhile since I felt that way.

"Yes, ma'am!" He mocked me then chuckled again, making me smile involuntarily. "So that means you're coming back to that shithole? For sure?"

"Yes."

We exchanged numbers, then each of us went on their way. I was absolutely sure that I was going to meet him again.. In the shithole, as I just said.

Actually, that shithole would be my heaven just because I wouldn't be feeling crazy and sick.. Just a normal girl.

So.. I am Raina.

I'm almost TWENTY FUCKING TWO years old. Not 29. Not that close to 30. Not yet.

Anyways.. I'm gonna graduate next year.

I'm supposed to have a boyfriend, but I'm gonna tell him that we're over once I'm done with him..

Once I get my payback for making me lose my mind so mercilessly.

By the way.. Why would Jungkook do this to me?

For Mia?

Nope. We ain't thinking about it now. We better think about a few important things. First, make sure that everybody is lying to you. Second, find out WHY they did that to you. Lastly, think about how to get back at every and each one of them.

Noted.

Last few months have been so hard on you. Raina, you are so strong to endure all this suffering and not break down once you knew about the fact that You were right and everything else was just a lie. You are a very strong girl.

Also.. For enduring the hideous headache all this time, and for completely ignoring it the entire day.

It's one son of a bitch by the way.

End of ch.19

I know this chapter was short, but there was a lot of information to absorb in it. I didn't want it to be.. Heavy.

Istg, starting from the last chapter when Hoseok firstly appeared, I had the reaction of 'jhooooooe' the entire time. 😂 Like he just came and left so quietly as if he isn't gonna be the reason of the storm coming up next.

That spoiler was intended btw. 👀

So, yes, Raina is not gonna take it easy. She's naturally a badass, so now, with such a beautiful unstable mind she's gonna be out of the place.

Lastly, for the very first time the voice in Raina's head wasn't mean, sarcastic or harsh on the girl here. Don't worry, it's only warming up for what's next.
That voice shall never lose its charm.
*note the sarcasm*

Hope you haven't lost your patience, and thank you for reading. ❤

love 💕