for, lover (Completed; editing)

Chapter 14

Things escalate too fast for my intoxicated brain to keep up. Tony grabs a fist full of my shirt and keeps me close to him as our lips stay locked. The way he kisses me is feverish. Either he hasn't done this in awhile or he just really wanted to do it with me.

He moves his hand down my waist and rolls onto his back to pull me on top of him. The tiny hint of sobriety left in me is screaming at myself to stop but the rest feels completely fine to where this is going.

I bring both of my hands up to cup his cheeks and his move even lower down my waist. I can feel his heart pounding through his shirt.

He slides his hands back up under the hem of my shirt. His fingertips are much warmer against my skin than I was expecting.

Our lips haven't parted for even a second. This is consuming me right now and I don't even know why I'm doing it. I wasn't even attracted to him like that but it feels too good to stop now. I guess just feeling any form of physical attraction at all is enough for my pathetic drunk ass.

Tony grabs onto the bottom of my shirt again and pulls it over my head. Our lips finally disconnect and his striking gaze meets mine.

"Is this okay?" He asks.

That only makes me want to do this more. He's polite about it and I respect that.

I nod and drag my hands down his chest. He tosses the shirt off to the side and leans up to kiss me again. I figured he wouldn't mind so I take his shirt off too. He smiles and watches me toss it before forcing our lips to collide once more.

Following that is a lot of back and forth questions asking me still if I'm okay with doing what we're doing. I know I'm drunk and I'll probably feel bad about this at some point in the morning but I'm still sure that I'm completely okay with this happening right now. Maddy was right. I need to enjoy myself for a change.

He climbs on top of me, kissing me gently everywhere that isn't covered, which wouldn't be much of anything soon. Of course Tony is the type of guy to be prepared in case this sort of thing were to happen so he gets the necessities from his wallet and gets back over to me, still letting me know under his breath that it's okay if he were to stop.

I don't want him to stop, so he doesn't. I allow myself to be engulfed in a whirlwind of euphoric escapade, not really caring how I'm going to feel whenever we're through. I owe it to myself to quit the self pity and do the things I want to do for a change.

I keep telling myself that and nothing ever changes.

"You're mesmerizing." Tony whispers as he runs his fingers through my hair once we're laying next to each other.

I close my eyes while still smiling, knowing any minute now I'm going to fall asleep. The last thing I remember was him covering us up with the comforter and pulling me securely to his bare chest.

Then my phone was ringing. I don't know how long it had been ringing when I finally wake up.

The sun had started to rise over Charlotte and we were still in the bed of the truck. I sit up rushingly and scramble around for my phone. I miss the call and see all of my notifications from last night with each call being Maddy, my mother, and even Ben countless of times.

"Shit!"

Tony jerks awake at my yelling and sits up. He glances around at our surroundings, his eyes widening like he must have not expected we'd still be out here either.