Miles
I was pissed. No one said anything to me all practice. Other than Arson, who kept trying to talk to me about what happened in between drills or when we were in a line together, and Li who was confused at the dynamic shift that was very prevalent today. I didn't want to talk to any of them. I was mad at Li. He didn't do anything wrong, but I was still mad. Why couldn't he read the fact that I just wanted to be with him. And why couldn't he want that too. I could be fair to him and say that I hooked up with a girl last week, but I was selfish and jealous and angry. I discovered that it was Joaquin, Carlos, Winter and Cory who had been watching from the steps. A terrible group of people. Mercury said nothing to me the whole practice. He looked embarrassed. I could tell he was embarrassed about yesterday. Which was good because at least I wasn't the only one suffering. I heard Cory try and cheer him up a few times, but Mercury just kept his eyes on the ground. I couldn't stop thinking of the coach's words. How had it gotten to this point? Fuck.
Practice ended and I rushed to the front. I had to walk home again because I didn't want to get a ride from Li or hook up with him, if he hadn't decided to fuck another guy tonight, and I didn't want to be anywhere near Arson. When I reached the front of the school, I saw Eliza leaning against the brick smoking. I hadn't seen her here in so long, I was taken aback. She wasn't smoking her usual cigarette. A pungent smell surrounded her, and I could tell she was smoking a joint.
"Eliza? You're here." I said and stopped in front of her.
"What the fuck do you want Miles?" She said and rolled her eyes at me. Okay, so why was she even mad at me? Fuck her.
"Fuck off, Eliza. I see you've switched to weed." I said matter-of-factly.
"Yep, August hates, hated, when I smoked so while she was here I didn't smoke any cigarettes and got off them a little. Plus, a cigarette isn't strong enough for how I feel right now. Stop being so fucking nosy." She said and looked at me with tired eyes. Her cheeks were a little swollen and the whites of her eyes reddish. Had she been crying?
"Why are you even here? You never tell me." I said and walked over beside her. I leaned on the brick wall along with her. She gave me the finger then blew smoke in my direction. I grabbed the joint from her mouth and put in mine, inhaling the nasty smoke. I blew it back at her. She grabbed it back.
"I thought you didn't smoke." She said bluntly.
"Well now I do." I said grabbing it again and inhaling some. She grabbed it back more harshly this time. Inhaling the drug made my head hurt a little.
"So, why you here?" I asked again, still wanting her answer.
"Oh my god. You ask me that every time and I never answer. Get a fucking hint." She spoke. "Learn some fucking people skills." She went on. Jesus, what was her problem today?
"Well, it's a little sus that you are here lingering on random fucking days." I shot back. This time she passed me the joint instead of me having to steal it. I took another puff and coughed a little. I then took another.
"It's none of your fucking business." She just said, taking the joint back. The team would be out soon, I needed to leave. I thought the weed would've made her chill, but she was the opposite of chill. I could feel my body relaxing. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay here while Eliza cursed at me. I inched closer to her. She just looked at me with her deadly eyes.
"You are the fucking worst." She shot at me and stuck her middle finger in my face. I just stared into her sloppy eyes. She took the joint out of her mouth and set in on the ground about a foot from her school bag. She stared at me again.
