It's New Year's Eve and I couldn't be happier. This year has been a crazy ride, but I'm back on the right route. I've got my best friends back, and maybe even a little more. Dallas and I have gone on a total of two dates in the past month, both of which have been slightly awkward but also fun. I don't know where I would be if it weren't for Callie helping me through all of this. She was the one who helped me straighten myself out and opened my eyes. Callie, my sister, organized our reunion. I've thanked her at least a hundred times since then.
I don't know if I would've done the same, but what is important now is that I am starting to realize how much life has to offer. Life is full of endless possibilities, and I have to learn to be okay with that. There's no negotiating with life, and that is something I am starting to accept. I can't run away from things when I should be confronting them. I'm done running and hiding, this is my life. Nothing should be able to have so much power over me, forcing me to constantly be in fear and wanting to stay in bed all day. I will not let anything have that much power over me again. I am a strong woman and I will be okay.
"Jo, you okay?" Callie lightly taps on the door. I look in the mirror one last time. I'm wearing a fancy red shirt and black jeans tonight. My family and friends are all here to have one last dinner this year. Afterwards we're all going to watch movies and maybe even watch the live countdown on TV. Either way, tonight is going to be good. Callie taps again, but this time I cut her off by opening the door.
"I'm happy," I smile at her.
My sister beams at me, the way she does when she is proud of me, "I love you, Jo-Jo."
"Love you too, Cal," We walk to the dining room together and join in the dinner party.
Everyone is smiling and laughing, all while eating and passing around bowls and platters of food. I don't think anyone has ever felt the way I do now. I feel like I could go into NASA right now and get a job as an aerospace engineer right on spot, and that takes a lot of confidence and self-pride. Right now, I don't think I've ever had such strong feelings about either of those things. This is good, life is good. I am whole and I am here. But most importantly, I've made it another year.
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أدب المراهقينJodie Sizemore is a normal teenager--she lives in a nice house, goes to a good school, and has a group of loyal friends. However, there are a few inevitable obstacles that seem to prevent her from enjoying her life, also known as Generalized Anxiety...
