COLLIDE | beomgyu

XV

tw // sexual assault

𝐉𝐢𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠.

He can't shine without me...

I mean, it's true that the moon won't be able to shine without the sun but..

Is he comparing us to the sun and moon?! What the actual heck!

I screamed into my pillow and threw it against the border of my bed in frustration, I pulled the roots of my hair and rolled over multiple times like a fool.

What Beomgyu said still hasn't left my mind ever since, it's literally 2 in the morning right now and I can't sleep because of him!

A lot more other things happened but what he said is corrupting me the most.

I'm not supposed to be making a fit over this! Him saying flowery words should be a typical Tuesday for me, I don't know what I ate or drank that made everything that asshole does a thousand times more attractive than it should be!

The way he just held me by the chin and looked me in the eye with his beautiful ones and said 'the moon can't shine without his sun' is making me lose my sanity.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck fuck, FUCK! What's happening to me? Why do I feel like this?!"

I started punching the air and cursing at it, the monster under my bed probably thinks that I'm the scarier one now.

The moonlight shined through my curtains and reflected on my white bedsheets, I stood up and walk to my window, pushing the curtain aside and raised both of my middle fingers at the moon.

"WHY are you so handsome, sly, annoying captivating, blood-boiling, irresistible, obnoxious and charming ALL AT THE SAME TIME?! I HATE YOU FOR THAT! This is so unfair! I was supposed to be ignoring you and what I feel for you, I hate you so much!" I ranted and rambled.

I pretended to choke the moon and punch it, making countless of thuds on my floor.

And thinking about what happened right after isn't helping at all!

My lips parted in shock but I tried my best to make my eyes remain calm even though I was losing my shit in the inside.

I quickly tried to come up with an answer to what Beomgyu said but the rain just keeps on getting heavier and heavier in each moment.

His hood was on but a few of his hair strands were wet and dripping. I just realized that I haven't replied yet, how can he always leave me so speechless?

"My leg is hurting, the silence is suffocating and the rain isn't gonna stop anytime soon, don't you think it's a bad idea to stay in the rain?"

With the blink of an eye, his normal self came back. I just nodded and dragged him towards the main gate. The bus stop had a bit of distance to our school but that'd be much better than staying stranded in our school for God knows how long.

"Are you not gonna take your bike?" I didn't even realize how stupid that sounded until I blurted it out.

We just walked out the main gate and are now on our way to the bus stop. Beomgyu was scooting so close to me, I don't know if it's because he doesn't wanna get wet or because he likes it when I'm close.

"How the hell am I supposed to do that? I didn't watch the weather forecast last night so I had no idea it'd rain this hard, Am I supposed to apologize for being clueless?"

Apologize for making my one week of ignoring you so difficult.

"Okay, let's just take the bus together."