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Chapter 28- Niall's POV

Chapter 28- NIALL'S POV

I don't know what happened last night. After falling asleep on the couch next to Jessica, and her waking up this morning in a state that I have never seen. I've seen her upset, mad, scared, jealous, and everything else but this is different. This is worrying me.

She hasn't moved once since I've gotten up from the couch. Her eyes are blankly staring at the couch cushions underneath her, she won't respond to my questions and the only thing she seems to be able to do is move her eyes from the couch to whoever is talking.

I feel like the worst husband in the world. She continuously told me what she wanted and yet I never listened to it. I should have realized that those rumors and going on tour with Josie would have been a bad idea, but I genuinely thought that it could've been good.

It could've been good to leave the past behind.

Then, she became obsessed again. I tried and tried to get rid of her, but she has a serious addiction problem to not only alcohol, but also drama.

I can see how it looks from Jess's point of view, from the point of view of my kids. I was trying to be nice to Josie, I mean I was on tour with her and had to put up with her.

Then she showed up at the hospital and I felt like the biggest idiot. That's really when I realized that I had made a mistake. All those moments of me talking to her were to try and convince her to leave.

I really do love Jess, and I could never ever hurt her like I have done for the second time again.

Man, when she was standing in front of me and threw that glass onto the pavement, my heart broke. I really realized how much of an asshole I have been and how much of it has affected her. She's my world, but I haven't been acting like it.

This morning, when I called Jessica's Mum, I had to explain everything. Of course she scolded me, asked me why I was such an idiot for making her go through everything again.

I really thought I was able to handle Josie alone, but in the end it just made me look like I was picking her over my own family.

Her mum, Taylor,  can't even get anything out of Jessica, and that says a lot. I'm at my wits end, and the kids are supposed to be coming home tonight. I can't let them see their mum this way. It would break them and I know Jess would never forgive me if they saw her like this.

I think it's the mentioning of the rape, the fact that she's barely eaten, and her mental state hasn't been the greatest ever since we've been together. That first time really did mess her up, and now I let it happen a second time.

I really made a mess of everything. Again.

I feel like the worst husband.

"Jessica," I whisper as I lean over the couch, brushing her brown hair behind her ear. Her blue eyes move into my direction, but that's the only attention that she's giving me.

Her eyes look completely exhausted. She's in overdrive.

"I need you to tell me what you want, Jess. I don't know how to help you," I mumble as I press my lips to her temple. The last thing I expected to happen is for her to flinch, which is exactly what she does.

That causes a pain in my chest that I've never felt before.

This is definitely about the rape from when she was younger.

"Do you think it's the rape?" Taylor asks from behind me. I stand back up, looking at her in surprise. I never knew that Jessica told her.

"You know?" I ask.

"Of course I know what happened to my daughter. She never even had to tell me and I already knew."

I nod, but then shrug. I don't know if it's the rape but after mentioning it to her last night and calling her a word that I never should have called her, it wouldn't surprise me. It wouldn't surprise me if it's her body shutting down after everything that has happened.

"Maybe you should see if Maura can get the kids for the night and we will see what she'll be like tomorrow."

I agree with her before walking up the stairs to go get my phone from my nightstand. I dial my Mum's number, feeling my heart clench at the fact that I've gotten Jess into this.

I'm the worst husband.

"Niall, sweetheart," my mum says immediately as she answers my phone call. That's all it takes for me to break down. I messed up so bad. I should have listened to her. "Niall, what's wrong?"

"I m-messed up m-mum. Messed-d up s-so bad," I sob as I sit down on the bed, sobbing and letting the tears fall down my cheeks.

"I'm coming over. I'll be there soon."

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SURPRISSEEEEEEE. never done a Niall POV and kinda like it. Idk we will see! Thanks for reading🤪

Oh and we're hitting the end pretty soon. Between five to ten more chapters!!!!