Lost Memories. (OikawaXreader)

Epilogue

Oikawa never did regain his memories.

Five years it's been and still nothing with him having any memory of who you were.

You knew that it was best that he didn't remember since you knew that the loss of his best friend would probably destroy his soul.

Life moved on and you tried to stick by Oikawa's side. Sharing all the memories you had with him including those with Iwaizumi.
You showed him all the photos just like he did with you. Told him everything you remembered and who he was before the accident.
You showed him his old teammates and even tried to get him to play volleyball.
But..It was no use.
The Oikawa Toru you grew up with was gone and there was nothing you could do to change that.

You told him about you and him being engaged and even though he said that it was fine if he kept you in his life. The love had slowly disappeared.

You both eventually decided to stay friends and move on with your lives.

His love for volleyball was gone, as well as his memories of anything you held on dear to your heart. He was gone.

You would go home alone and look through all the photos you took in your life.
Smiling to yourself as you saw you smiling with Iwaizumi. Or making silly faces with Oikawa. You even shed tears at the photos when he proposed to you.
Iwaizumi wasn't the best photographer, you'd say.

Yuma would call and check up on you every so often, but all you wanted was your Toru to come back to you.
You need him the most and yet, he wasn't there. It felt like you were alone in this cruel world.
You just wanted him, and yet just like high school, he wasn't yours.

"Good morning Iwaizumi." You'd say when you wake up every morning to his picture that was on your bedside table.
Get ready for the day and put on that fake smile that you've grow accustomed to.

You knew from the moment that Oikawa didn't remember you, your life was going to change.
But there was one more thing that happened in the past five years.

You had a baby boy.

You knew that it was before the accident when you must of became pregnant, but you didn't officially know until after the accident.

When you told Oikawa, he wasn't shocked at all. He actually guessed that something like that would have happened. He made it clear that he wanted to be in your son's life and do his best to build a relationship.
But no matter how much he was around, The love you once held for him was gone. You fell in love with the old Oikawa and you would always love that version of him.
Yet, You still admired the new Oikawa and how he was willing to be in his son's life.

You made a note to tell your son when he was older, who is father used to be.
To share the stories and memories with him.
You'd even teach him volleyball.

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As of right now, you were standing with your son's hand in yours.
You were standing in front of Iwaizumi's grave. Gripping your son in one hand, and a wedding invitation to Oikawa's wedding in the other.

"You can kick his butt now Iwa.." You whispered so your son wouldn't hear.

"Hey mom? Look that's my name!" He said pointing to the grave stone in front of you.

You smiled. "That's right Hajime, that is your name."

"Is this the friend that you have a picture of on your table?"

You nodded. "Yes, that's him."
You felt a single tear fall down your face.
"I miss you Iwaizumi." You said in another whisper.

You turned to your son. "Ready to go?"

"Mom? Why are you crying?"

You picked up the boy and held him on your hip.
"See this man's name? He was my friend, but I lost him just before you were born."

"Was he your best friend?"

You smiled. "Yes Hajime. He was my best friend."

"Do you miss him?"

"Not a day goes by that I don't miss him. I'll tell you what, when you're older I'll tell you all about him."

"Okay mommy!" He smiled.

You smiled back at the boy who resembled Oikawa.
He had his chocolate brown hair, and his brown eyes.
You didn't have Oikawa, but you did have his son.

You would wish for the past to change, to have your fiancé never be in that car accident with Iwaizumi. But you also knew that dwelling on the past will just hurt you more.
So instead. You decided to be the best mom you could be, and live life to the fullest.

-The End.

A/N:
Not me listening to supermarket flowers by Ed sheeran as I wrote this last chapter.
My heart hurts and I can't stop crying...
I enjoyed writing this book. It was something that I haven't really done before with going back and forth from the past and present.
I also knew that I'd do this to Y/n, at the end of this book before I even started it.

I'm sorry if you are also crying along with me, but I really did have a lot of fun writing this.

Thank you for taking the time to read this book as well! Your comments always make me smile. Even if I'm a crying mess.
 
I love you all and I hope you're staying safe and staying hydrated!
Until next time!
-Steph :D