✔️ Body and Mind

Fear

As usual, once they went to bed, Anya waited for Yuzuru to fall asleep and then got up again, going to the living room to read. But no matter how hard she tried to focus on the book, her thoughts kept drifting to what happened earlier that day.
At 2 am she gave up and went to Yuzuru's jacket, took out his keys, and went outside, into the dark night.
She sat down on one of the benches in front of the building, absolutely scared to death from being there alone and with just the darkness surrounding her. But that was exactly what she wanted. What she needed to get through.

Anya sat there inhaling the cold air and darting with her eyes to every sound she could hear, making sure it's not some stranger coming towards her. And when after few minutes her breathing calmed down, she went to the next stage of closing her eyes and replaying fragments of the attack in her mind.

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-You are a feisty one aren't you?! My foot actually fucking hurts! That girl forgot to mention you are actually good at fighting back. Though it's true I am going quite off the book now, she hired me only to destroy your laptop and all of your books....

Anya was on the floor, her stomach in pain after all the kicking she received, and the guy sitting across her waist on top of her, enjoying the higher ground he now had against her. She was trying to focus all of her mind on the move she should do now to flip the guy over.

-Well but she mentioned something else....she is pretty sure you are now dating some skater. I still remember seeing on TV the attack on that woman, what the fuck was her name?!

Anya was trying to wiggle out of his hold but failing. She knew she was supposed to raise one of her legs over his shoulder to get from the hold, but he was keeping her pinned down too well.

-Fuuck, what the fuck was her name?!!! Do you know who I mean, hm? Of course, you do. C'mon, tell me!!

Anya was silent and he hit her across her face, breaking her lip.

-Tell me!!!

-Nancy.... Nancy Kerrigan.

Anya sighed out with a raspy voice.

-Yeah!! That's the one!! So if you don't stop fucking moving, the knee of that skater of yours is gonna meet the same metal club that Nancy met. How about that?

Anya froze under his hold not daring to move or breathe. The guy grinned back at her.

-Well that worked fast.

He got up and dragged her into the corner of her room on the opposite side of the door.

-So now you gonna sit here, do not fucking move, while I do my part of destroying those stupid books and then....we gonna have some fun.

And he leaned over her and placed a kiss on her cheek. Anya was trembling in fear but not able to move.

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Anya opened her eyes into the night and gasped for air. The cold night filling up her lungs, making her shiver. She started to look around again, relieved to see she is still alone, trying to create a feeling that it is okay to be alone in the dark.
She tilted her head backwards and looked at the dim stars above her, recalling the empowering feeling of how she felt when she kicked that creep at TCC.
That was her, fighting back, not being afraid of walking home alone late at night.
Not the scared girl that quietly sat in a corner watching a guy destroying her things and not even attempting to run away when he let down his guard. Anya was trying with all her might to regain herself again.
She closed her eyes again, but as soon as she recalled the next bit of the guy touching her, she knew she can't go any further than that. She quickly opened her eyes again, seeing Yuzuru just in his pajama bottoms and a jacket coming towards her. Anya sat up more straight, trying to quickly calm down her breathing.