Emma and Will pregnancy

2 weeks without him

It's been 2 weeks since Me and Emma lost William, it's been the most painful and hard 2 weeks of both are lives. Me and Emma have hardly talked, she won't speak to anyone not even her mom, Brooke and Jake come round everyday to see how we are both doing. My mom and Emma's mom have been looking after Mia for the past 3 weeks, as we have both been grieving and are too upset to take care of Mia right now. I've not been doing so well with grieving, I been drinking every night, and then Jake has been sorting me out. So that has what been happening for 2 week.

Emma can I get you anything, like drink or food. Yeah you can being my son back. Emma you know I can't, if I could I would do anything to have him back. Will you know that you will never be able to bring him back, ever. (Emma and Will's voice get louder). Yeah I know I can't Emma, don't you think I have thought that. Why are you raising your voice at me, you know your not the only person who lost your son, I lost my son too. Yeah I know you did, Emma I had to watch you go though all that pain, you had to give birth to him. That broke me seeing you like that, and I couldn't do anything to help you. Will you could of done something. Emma I have asked you everyday for the past 2 weeks and you have said that you don't want anything. Yeah because I lost my son, and I was to grive. Yeah and so have I, we haven't seen are own daughter for three weeks because all I do is when I think of Mia or when my mom, your mom or Brooke sends photos of her all I do is cry or get angry because she will never meet her brother and it's hard being a dad to Mia and not thinking of William. Will don't you think I fucking know that, I know it is. I can't see Mia too, because all I see is William or think of him, I want to see her so bad but I can't because I know am going to break down. I don't get why your getting fucking angry at me, am in the same situation. You know for the past 2 weeks, I've been drinking the pain away, Jake last week found me passed out at the top of the cliff, Emma whilsts you have been in bed for the past 2 I've been getting pissed every night, because I lost my son my boy my only boy, and I wanted that pain to go away so badly but it won't. Will your not the only fucking one who lose there son, I had to give fucking birth to him, I had to leave him alone at the hospital I even have to fucking burier him next week, do you know how painful that feels to have to burie your son. Of course I fucking do, Emma you do know your not the only person who made William, he was half you half me. Yeah I know he is, but I had to carry him for 8 whole months then to give birth to him and not even hear his cry. It's like you don't even fucking care how I am doing, I wake up every morning and think am never gonna watch my son talk, walk or say dada for the first time. And most importantly I will never get to see Mia meet him for the first time and protect him like a cute big sister she would of been. That's the part that is killing me, not being able to watch Mia and William grown up as brother and sister, I would do anything. It's like you don't ever fucking care about me anymore. I've given you fucking ever, I gave you Mia, I brought you this fucking house, I look after you I even give you good sex for fuck sake. Will just fuck off, I have just lost my son and your fucking screaming at me. EMMA YOUR NOT THE ONLY PERSON WHO LOST THERE SON, I LOSE MY SON TOO, SO SHUT THE FUCK UP. WILL GET THE FUCK OUT NOW.

Downstairs where Brooke and Jake are, they both come racing upstairs to take them both apart. They both hear them both screaming at each other upstairs and gets worried.

Hey hey hey, calm down the both of you. Brooke will you just get Will out of here. Will come on, let's go out the house for a bit. Yeah because Emma clearly doesn't care about me so what's the fucking point in being in this house. Oh just fuck off Will, get out of my sight. Brooke text me when you want me to bring him back. I will, thank you Jake. Right Em, am gonna go make us both a coffee then we will sit and talk. Thank you Brooke.

Will and Jake:

Right come on bro, let's go get a coffee or something and go somewhere. Alright, I just don't get how Emma doesn't give a fuck about me. Will I promise you, she does it's just hard for her to come to terms that She, well both of you lost your Son. Yeah I know but she has to understand that am grieving too, and she knows I don't show my emotions that much. Yeah I understand you bro, maybe you both need to sit down and talk about everything. I suppose your right.

Brooke and Emma:

Here you go Em, a large coffee for you. Thanks Brooke, am sorry you and Jake had to hear all that. Aww Em it's fine. I understand that you and Will are both upset and angry that you lost William and you both just want to take your anger out on both each other. Yeah I suppose your right. I just want my little boy back. I know you do Em, it's going to be really hard for a while but it will get better. I should of never said them things to Will, I didn't mean them I was just angry. Maybe You and Will should both sit down and talk about everything. Yeah your right, I think we need a few days break from each other just so we can get are thoughts and feels together. Yeah perfect idea, when do you think your both going to see Mia.

I don't know, it just so hard because when William was born he looked like Mia and when you or my mom or will's mom send pictures of her I just see William and I feel sad. I want to see my baby girl so much but it's so hard. Of course it is, it will be for while because they will look the same because there brothers and sisters, and have the same as you and Will. But just take your time. Yeah your right, I might go to my moms this weekend me and Will to see her. Yeah that will be nice, she really misses you when me and Jake look after her she always says Mama Dadda. Aww does she. Yeah, she really loves you.

Jake and Will:

At the basketball court: Cheers for bringing me here bro. It's alright, I thought this was the best place to bring you here to calm you down. Yeah your right, to be honest I spent most my days here last week just thinking and shooting some shots. Yeah it's a good place to come and think things. I just wish I could of taken William here, you know teach him to take his first shot at the net, to watch him play his first match. I know you do mate, but you have to remember he's looking down on you always and thinking what an amazing dad you are to Mia. Yeah your right, I just want my two children back, in my arms. But seeing Mia just reminds of William, like when my mom sends me photos of Mia she looks exactly like William and it breaks my heart that am never going to see William again and that Mia isn't going to be a big sister to him. I understand bro, it's going to be hard for weeks, either months maybe years but you and Emma will get though it, I promise you. Thank you bro, I just don't want anything to happen to Emma. Theses past fees have been hell for her, I know they have.

It still breaks my heart, when we had to say goodbye to William. We didn't carry a car seat to the car, we didn't have 'It's a boy' balloons, we didn't have Emma carrying Mi while I carry William in his car seat and we didn't have that cute family of 4 photos. We didn't get any of that, and it's breaking my heart that I will never get that ever again. Listen to me Will, you and Emma are going to have another baby, I promise in the future. And William with always be yours and Emma's son, that isn't changing. He will be looking down at you now, and thinking what an amazing dad you would of been but your still a dad to Mia and your going to be an amazing one to her. Thank you Jake, I really appreciate it. You really know how to calm me down when am angry or something. Yeah I suppose I do

For the next couple of hours, Will and Jake play a game of baseball just the two of them. Then they both go grab a burger for the burger shop. Listen Will why don't you come stay at mine and Brooke's for a few days, just so you and Emma can have time away from each other and just sort yourself out. Yeah that sounds good, thanks bro. No problem, come on.

Will stays at there house for 3 days, he has time to think about everything and get himself sorted. Brooke went to see Emma everyday while Will was at there's. It was good for them both to spend some time from each other and both think about everything.