A Little Patience

22. Nightmares

April fifth, 1994. 

Lilly walked into Kurt's greenhouse. Rain shattered on the small house. When she stepped inside she saw Kurt with a shotgun in hand. She screamed. "Kurt?! What are you doing?!" She asked. Kurt looked at her. Before placing the barrel of the gun in his mouth. Lilly screamed she wanted to run to Kurt she wanted to say something. But when she attempted to speak she couldn't. Her words were muffled or just came out in squeaks. She tried to run to him but her feet were glued to the floor. "KURT!" She was able to blurt out as the shot fired and Kurt ended up on the ground. 

Lilly jumped up and started screaming waking Axl up in the process. "Lilly, Lilly, hey what's wrong?" Axl asked bringing Lilly to his arms. "I had a dream, Axl. I dream where Kurt killed himself right in front of me I saw his eyes. He looked so sad," Lilly said crying. "It will be alright. I promise. I'll always be here with you. Even if... Even if Kurt doesn't pull through," Axl said. 

Rage, sadness, and fear struck Lilly like a truck. She pushed herself away from Axl. "HOW COULD YOU SAY HE ISN'T GOING TO PULL THROUGH!" Lilly yelled. She jumped out of bed and walked out of the room. "Lilly!" Axl called after her. 

He ran into the living room and saw Lilly standing by the door with her car keys in hand. She was leaving. "Lilly, no, please don't go. I-I was just trying to help. I'm sorry I made you upset! I was just trying to help. Please. Please," Axl begged. 

Lilly sighed and set her keys down. She wrapped her arms around Axl's neck and began to sob. "I-I d-don't know wh-what I-I'd d-do without h-him, Axl. H-he was a-always th-there for m-me," Lilly cried. Axl rubbed her back. "It's alright, Lilly. It's alright. We'll find him a promise. We have my band and Kurt's looking for him. Along with Meegan. And I even contacted my good friend Michelle to keep an eye out for Kurt when she arrived yesterday," Axl said. 

"Axl. Have anyone looked in the greenhouse yet?" Lilly asked. "No," Axl said. "Then we have to go! Axl! My dream! The green-" they were cut off by Izzy and Michelle running in panting. "Kurt... in his house!" Izzy said clearly running out of air. "What?" Axl asked. "Kurt's at his house we saw his car," Michelle explained as Izzy caught his breath.