After several hours of sleep . I awoke to Find my husband napping in the chair beside the bed . I didn't see head nor tail of my newborn and a small part of me was worried. Then again he might just be in the nursery with the other babies. Soon my husband woke .
" Hey ," He smiled softly and got up kissing my forehead
" Hey Sid, Where's Colter ?"
"They took him to the nursery I took the liberty and called the grandparents. There both headed this way . "
" What about Taylor and Luke ?"
" Taylor has a game but will head down when finished. Luke is going to catch the next train . "
I nodded that I understood . " Are you gonna play tomorrow night ?" I knew Sid had a game the first of the new series against Tampa. The conference finals of we could win theses games we'd be so much closer to the cup .
" I was thinking about it , It kind of depends how your doing I don't want to leave you alone with the newborn ."
I kissed him softly . " I know but I wont be alone and I know how much it means to you . "
Just then a nurse came into the room she saw how I was doing then asked.
" If you'd like I can go get your son for you . "
I smiled and thanked her I'd like that .
She soon came back with our new bundle of joy swaddled in a beautiful blue blanket we need to make that a pens blanket I thought . The nurse handed him to me and I felt my heart swell a little bit . But not as much as I might feel . O shock off the feeling this was my son after all . As Sid and I admired our son there came a knock on the door and the door creaked open . In walked servel of the guys from the team including Flower, Letang, kuntiz, Dupuis, and Geno . It was flower who spoke first .
" We heard that little Bebe Crosby had been welcomed into the world . "
" We thought we should be the first to welcome him to the organization. "
I smiled " Thanks guys. " The guys gathered around my bedside all wanting to get a look at Colter . There were various comments from the lot
" He's so adorable. "
" A real looker eh . "
" Just wait till he can skate. "
Then Geno asked " What you name him?"
" Colter , Colter Troy Crosby. "
" We Did have to keep the middle name of his grandfather in place it is a family tradition. "
The boys stayed around a bit longer before leaving .
Later that day as I was getting ready for discharge and being given typical instructions. No sex so on and so forth . I was surprised by more visitors. Both our parents.
" Mom , Dad . " I hugged them both and was also hugged by Trina . We took a short time to catch up
" Now where is my son and our grandson ?"
" Sid ran home to get the Carrier and car seat Since Colter decided to be born before my due date and during a game . And your grandson is more then likely having a last checkup before he gets to go home . " a few minutes later a nurse came in. Carrying Colter both his grandparents were enamoured with him . Trina and my mom had to hold him of course. He already had them wrapped around his little finger . Not even a full day old .
" He's a real looker will get all the ladies when he's older ." Troy said
I laughed " Yes he will have to fight them off just like his father . Speaking of your father what could be taking him so long ." I half said to the baby and to myself . No sooner then I'd said this Sid came strolling in with the baby carrier . He was obviously surprised our parents had made such good time . He greeted them .
" I'm glad you guys made it . Is everything ready to go babe . " he kissed me
I nodded "Just let me get the little one all snug in his carrier . God I can't believe we are actually bringing our baby home . "
" I know darling . " he touched my forehead to his own and I forgot for a moment we
weren't the only ones in the room . That was until I saw a flash and realized someone had taken a picture . I heard my mom mummer.
" Sorry had to document the moment. "
We headed out to the car and Sid trying to figure out the car seat was pretty funny
"Hey ! don't mock me ! I'm a hockey player not an engineer."
I laughed and kissed him " Its okay I love you anyway."
once everything was settled we headed back to the house . We got home and I took little Colter to his nursery admiring the place I put him down for a nap.
I expected tonight would be a huge family dinner . My mother and Sid's were busy in the kitchen cooking when the door bell rang. The door bell rang the new dad went to get it. At this point I had Colter down with me . I was going to try breast feeding him for the first time after dinner. I'd just feed him formula in the hospital . But now that we were going to back to some what of a normal routine I thought now would be the best time to get things in order . I heard my brothers voice and soon Luke wandered in with Molly and little Paul .
" I hear our little nephew has been born . "
" Yes he has ."
" Can I see him ? "
I nodded holding little Colter out for my brother to see . As my brother held my newborn he commented .
" He looks just like Sid . "
" I know . "
Everyone went to the hotel or in my parents and Sid's case went to there respective guest rooms. I'd feed my son and things had actual gone fairly smoothly . However seeing as how this was our first night home with a newborn we'd see if we got any rest or not. But much to my surprise Colter only woke us up 4 times I'd expected much more. We'd just lucked out our baby slept fairly well through the night
About a week later things had settled in and a new pattern and way of doing things developed. Sid was going to be gone on a road trip to play the Bolts in game 3 and 4 he'd be gone 4 days . It was the first time Sid would be away since the baby was born . And although my mother and father where still here I knew I couldn't impose and get their help. Besides they were leaving the day after Sid. As Sid and I lay in bed early the morning of his flight cuddling
" I'm going to miss you while your gone , its the first time you'll be away from the baby ."
He kissed my forehead " I know but your going to be fine . And if you need anything you know Vero is always there , and I'm sure Natalie is willing to lend a hand .
" I know I just don't want to impose I'm not sure I'll be a good mother . "
" Now ,love your a wonderful mother . "
To tell the truth I wasn't so sure I didn't feel an overwhelming love for my child . Something I knew I should but that wasn't the only thing off . No far from it But I couldn't tell anyone . I saw Sid off to his trip . All these thoughts churning away in the back of my mind .
Was there something wrong with me ?
