It was the second week of November and the boys where at home for a good stant of time . Over dinner one Sid said .
" Claire a friend of mine is gonna be in town for a few days I thought you should know she said she might stop by the house. "
" She ? Who is it ?" I had a hinting suspicion who but let's not jump the gun .
" Her name is Kathy . "
" That super model . You were rumored to be dating for so long . "
" One and the same ."
" Where you two actually ever you know a couple ? "
" On Again off Again for about a year and a half .. Then it was more just a friend with benefits thing ."
" I see okay ."
About two days later I was in the middle of unloading the dishwasher when I heard the door bell ring . I heard Sid yell from the other room.
" I got it . "
I finished unloading the dishwasher and heard the door open and voices talking . Whipping my hands on a towel I went to go see who it I found Sid talking to a blonde women who clearly was a supermodel . I felt a pang of jealousy here I was 5'4 average weight and getting fatter. Thanks little man lost in my thoughts I barely caught Sid introducing me
" Claire this is my Friend Kathy and , Kathy this is my beautiful wife Claire . "
" It's nice to meet you . Welcome to our home . " Yeah our home I thought reamber that Sid's a married man now . "
" It's nice to meet you to . "
Sid invited her in and asked her if she would like anything to drink . Eventually everything settled in and Sid and her were chatting away . I had to contain my thoughts I don't know what had gotten into me but I was not likening this whole visit thing at one point Sid mentioned the baby .
" Oh i wasnt aware you two were expecting how far along are you ?"
" Just about 16 weeks we are having a little boy . "
" Well congratulations to you both ."
I dont know how long she stayed but it was to long finally she said .
" Well I should get going it's been great seeing you again Sid. "
she hugged him I was glaring daggers at this point . He saw her out when he came back into the living room he spoke . It's like he could instantly tell I was in a mood .
" Babe what's wrong . " he wrapped his arms around me .
" Me , nothing nothing at all. "
" That's totally bull I know when something is wrong when your upset . Do you know why your mommies is upset . " he talked to my belly .
" You know the baby can actually hear you Their hearing is developing at 16 weeks and will be developed by 18 weeks. "
" That still doesn't answer the question."
" you should know ."
He thought for a couple of minutes when it suddenly dawned on him .
" No you aren't . No way your jealous of Kathy. "
" hmmm you think a super model Some one who was in an on again off again sexual relationship with my husband and who clearly doesn't like me nor probably respects we are married .
Claire please .. Don't be like that
You saw the way she looked at me . "
Claire
I crossed my arms and didn't respond
He sighed and spoke
" if it makes you feel better I won't invite her over Agian . "
" Thank you "
Later after dinner we sat on the couch cuddling and watching Netflix. Suddenly it dawned upon me how unworthy of Sid I really was. I didn't deserve him or the happiness he brought me . My mind was a mess of these thought all more realistic and true then the last . It was to much to tale and I found myself starting to cry . Sid picked up on my change of emotion pretty quickly
" Babe whats , wrong why are you crying? "
" Oh Sid . "
" What's wrong love ? You can tell me whats wrong? Did I do something ? "
I shook my head " No . No Sid not at all I was just thinking . "
He rubbed my back softly and the tears started to slow I sniffled before speaking again. " it's silly really I was just thinking about how happy we are together and how you could have any girl in this city . Yet you choice me plain old me . There's nothing special about me . "
" Don't say that . You know that's not true there are so many special things about you . Like You know more about hockey then any non player I know . Your smart and make me laugh ."
" Your just saying that to cheer me up ."
" no I'm not it's true . You know it's true. " he kissed me softly
After a bit I pulled away " I'm sorry my emotions are just all out of whack . Stupid pregnancy hormones . "
" don't apologize it's not your fault . I'm happy to have you and the little one . Our Son . He placed a hand on my belly .
" so am I Sid so am I . "
A few days passed and the Penguins were playing the flyers I didn't go to the game but I did watch it on TV we lost 4-2 .. Ouch that hurt I saw how mad Sid was in the game broke his stick Against the bench . I winced he was not gonna be happy when he got home . I was right less then an hour after the game was over I heard the front door open and slam shut . Cue pissed off Sid .. I rose from were I sat and went to find him . " Sid . " I heard banging in the kitchen what in heavens name I went into the kitchen to see what all the ruckus was . I found my husband in the liquor cabinet. Defiantly not happy . I saw him poor himself a drink . Not saying a word I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face in his shoulder after a few minutes I spoke . " Sid I know your mad at the lost I don't blame you no one likes to lose. Especially to the filthy flyers . But it's one game and you can't kill yourself over it . "
He placed his glass down roughly on the counter " we should have won I should have done more I should have .. "
" shh " I kissed him ." You will get them next time I know you will."
" it's my fault we lost."
" I rolled my eyes and spoke " Sid you are not the reason you lost everyone shares the blame . Repeat after me I am not the reason we lost the game . " Sid didn't repeat " Sid ."
" fine I'm not the reason we list the game . "
" good . Now I'm gonna make some food you want anything?"
" poutine ?"
I chuckled "I suppose I could try my hand at it . Might not be the very best but for you I will try. " the rest of that night was spent cheering him up .
Since it was November that meant it movember the month to grow facial hair and increase the awareness of men's health issues. That meant Sid was growing his facial hair. I think It was at the start of the 3rd week of November when I had to make a comment about the fuzzy Caterpillar that resided on his upper list . We were cuddled up in bed having a lazy morning I kissed him . and spoke " You know .. I'm still not sure what my thoughts on the stache are .. I know its for a good cause and everything but I'm just not sure it suits you .
he chuckled softly and kissed my cheek .
" That would be two of us . Some days I don't mind it other days I just want to shave it off . "
" I feel excatly the same .. but I love you for you facial hair or not. Although I should be thankful it seems your facial hair doesnt grow as fast as some mens I've heard horror stories abiut beard burn from freinds . "
He chuckled agian and went back to cuddling
