Fuck.
Every time I turn around, I dig my hole deeper than previous.
I didn't mean to make it sound like she is just another employee to me.
God knows she isn't.
But she wouldn't let me explain.
She never lets me explain.
Just leaves.
Gets mad.
Slams doors in my face.
Maybe this is all a sign for me to stop wanting her. To make me stop reaching to something I will never hold.
Luna really scratched the Hell out of me last night. Bit my neck where my tumor was.
That spot is still so tender.
Helen was being funny.
Being friendly.
Of course Luna wanted her.
And when I fucked up- Luna wanted nothing more than to kill me.
Huh- so here I am. Outside Helen's office, staring at the closed door- praying that next time it opens, I'll have just enough time to make things better.
It's highly unlikely.
The door handle jiggles a bit and I step back.
As it opens, Lauren is coming out with puffy eyes and Helen is facing standing sideways with her blouse up- looking at the small bump in the reflection of the window. When she notices my reflection in the windowpane, she turns around quickly and lowers her shirt.
"Get out!!!" She yells and whips her stapler across the room at me.
She doesn't sound angry though.
She sounds upset- embarrassed maybe...guilty almost. I close the door before the stapler can hit me and turn away from it.
"Dr. Goodwin? Is everything alright?" Mariana asks as she comes from the nurses station down the hall.
"Perfect." Walking off, I get into the stair well and hustle down the stairs. I need to get as far away from her as humanly possible.
She doesn't know what I've seen.
For all she knows, I didn't see anything.
I wonder if now she will tell me about her pregnancy. She kind of has too. I seen her bump.
Her cute little bump.
Her beautiful brown sugared skin slightly protruding out ever so slightly.
How I want to feel her baby- like I used to feel Luna inside Georgia. It's the best feeling in the world. Feeling unborn life growing inside the person you love.
"Max!! I need to talk to you!" Turning, I find Floyd rushing towards me with a slightly angered face.
"Floyd? How can I help?"
"Why did you remove me from the ED?"
"It's a long story, but trust that I will find you a temporary home until I can get you back into the OR. Although...I still haven't found a replacement for Shin..."
"You want me to do Trauma surgeries?" He looks me over as if I'm crazy and frankly- it's all I got.
"Yeah...you did great removing that appendix a while back. What's the problem?" Apparently there is a big problem.
"Can I just know why you moved me?" Sighing, I stop and look at him.
"Huh...Floyd- you are a great doctor and a great surgeon."
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Distanced
Hayran KurguMax and Helen have been distant for over a year and some odd months. Neither have had any luck moving forward in their busy lives. Both are struggling in their own ways and nothing seems to be rekindling their damaged vibe. When Helen receives impor...
