sara nicks never in a million years thought she would be part of that cliche where she fell in love with someone, who turned out to be her teacher. gwendolyn james has a dark past, and seems like the most unfriendly person ever. but will that change...
i groaned as i slowly woke up in my chair that i had accidentally fallen asleep in. i was watching american horror story when i got back from my date with eloise last night, and i guess i had just fallen asleep. oh my god how was it only wednesday? i really don't feel like going to school at all today, i just don't see the point. i was about to go back to bed and sleep the rest of the day, when rhi texted me, letting me know she'd be here in 10. damn it. i grudgingly picked out a random dress with a cardigan and put on some mascara, brushed my hair and my teeth, and ran downstairs.
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(sara's fit) "have a good day at school honey!" my mom called after me. i ignored her, because she has been getting on my last nerves lately. i got in rhi's car and turned her music up louder so she wouldn't try to talk to me. she turned it back down and talked to me anyway. "um ok miss thang i think you're mistaking me for your other best friend who puts up with your moody attitudes" she said. "i'm just tired and my life is getting more complicated by the day, and everything is just too much so can we just drive" i pleaded, because i knew if she made me talk about my feelings, i'd break down. "baby, you know when you say things like that it makes me worried you're having those thoughts again" she was referring to that week last summer where i tried to OD on sleeping pills and got sent to a mental hospital. i was talking to her on snap before i did it, and i was saying things that worried her, so she drove over to my house at 11 PM to check on me, and she was the one who found me on the floor. just thinking about last summer makes my eyes well with tears. "chill out rhi i'm not gonna do anything, life has just been hard lately" i said. "well talk to me about it!" she said as we pulled into the parking lot. i eventually decided that talking about my feelings couldn't do any harm, so we talked all the way up until the first bell rang. i told her about a girl that i had feelings for, my date with eloise, my parents constant bickering and putting me in the middle, etc. by the time i was done talking, i had tears streaming down my face. "oh baby, i'm so sorry" she said pulling me into a hug. "do you just wanna ditch today?" she asked. "no, i need to go i just need a minute. you go ahead i'll be fine" i said with a small smile. she gave a concerned look before i waved her off with my hand. she eventually went into the school and i tried to stop crying. i really tried everything, deep breathing, happy music, anything to make me smile, but i could not stop sobbing. i just kept thinking about how shitty my life has been so far. i finally had to get out of the car because i had already missed first period. as if on cue, gwendolyn came up from the car parked behind me. she didn't notice me at first, and i tried to turn away from her so she couldn't see it was me, but it didn't work. "sara?" she called. "damn it" i sighed. i still didn't turn to look at her though, because i didn't want her seeing my puffy face and smeared mascara. "i know, i'm late, but before you laugh i have a perfectly good explanation- sara why aren't you looking at me?" she asked. "oh i just like looking at the trees, don't worry about it" i said with my head up at the sky. "bullshit" she sighed and walked up behind me and turned me around. she saw my messy face and didn't say anything, just pulled me into a hug. why was she so hard to stay away from? she was stroking my hair as i cried into her chest. while we were hugging, the bell for second period rang and we pulled away from each other. "what happened?" she asked. "i couldn't get into it again" i said, looking down. "i get it. here, i have some tissues, go clean your mascara off and then get to class okay?" she said, obviously trying to maintain boundaries, but the look in her eyes said she wanted to ditch school with me and wipe my tears away. "thank you" i said with a small smile. i was on my way to english, fully recovered from my breakdown, when someone tapped my shoulder. i turned around to see eloise with an eager grin. "oh hey eloise" i said with a small smile. don't get me wrong, she was a sweet girl but she was just so. damn. happy. all the time. like someone should hold her down and tell her bad things about the world or something. "hey sara! i had so much fun last night" she said with a wink, which thoroughly confused me since all we did was hold hands, and it really wasn't that fun. "oh me too" i lied through my teeth. we were outside of Gwendolyn's classroom and i started to walk in when eloise grabbed my hand, pulled me closer to her, and pressed our lips together. i was confused, but i continued kissing her because i didn't have the energy to pull away and hurt her feelings. it was a surprisingly passionate kiss for someone who seems so innocent. she finally pulled away for air and i just gave her a smile as i walked into the classroom. i was greeted with a pair of ice blue eyes shooting daggers at something behind me. then it hit me that gwendolyn was jealous. she had obviously seen the kiss and was jealous. i really didn't care though, because she was so hot and cold with me that i was getting whiplash.
