the minor details

aftershock

"damn it i told you i got the michigan house!!! i paid for it!!" i slowly opened my eyes when i was woken up by my mothers incessant screaming into her phone. i assumed she was talking to my dad about the divorce. after about 30 seconds of looking around the plain white room, my eyes fell on the large iv sticking out of my arm. i noticed it was connected to big bag with clear liquid, and next to that was a machine reading my heartbeat. damn it, i was in a hospital. realization finally hit that i had tried to overdose, and failed. my eyes started to well with tears and the beeping machine began to speed up. my mom got off of her call and rushed over to my side. oh now she cares. 

"oh thank god, sara. how do you feel?" she said with a worried face.

"tired. what happened?" i asked.

"baby, you don't remember? you took a bunch of antidepressants and overdosed. you were unconscious when a jogger found you. if he had found you any later, your heart would've stopped." i began to cry again, and i felt a mixture of emotions ranging from disappointed to relieved. my mom held my hand while i sobbed, until she got another phone call and disappeared into the hall. i thought about the events that had taken place before i tried to overdose. my heart dropped when i remembered gwen's harsh words. i think that probably hurt more than remembering that my father had called me worthless. then, rhi rushed through the door with a tear stained face.

"sara!! oh my god you're alive" she sobbed. she ran over to me and tightly hugged me. "your mom called me and said you were at the hospital, and that you overdosed. she didn't say how bad it was and i was so worried. i'm so so sorry i didn't talk to you when you called me yesterday. that was totally selfish of me."

"rhi, it's fine. i forgive you. i'm sorry for worrying you" i said. she kept hugging me until a nurse came in.

"miss nicks. i'm glad to see you awake. unfortunately we have to give you a psych evaluation, which should be fairly easy. we'll have to keep you here for a few days so we know you're no longer a danger to yourself." i nodded, and wasn't completely annoyed that i'd have to stay here for awhile. i liked the quiet environment. after seeing rhi's reaction, i decided that i could never do anything like this again, no matter how bad the situation is.

                    GWENDOLYN'S POV

i was entering grades at my computer in my final class period. i noticed that sara hadn't been in class today. my mind wandered as i thought about all of the possibilities as to why she was absent. i was a little worried, because she never missed class. normally i didn't give absent students a second thought, but sara wasn't any normal student. i still felt awful about how harsh i had sounded yesterday. i spent a good amount of last night crying. but i had to get over it, because my relationship with her has been totally inappropriate. the bell rang and dismissed my last class of the day. i continued to try to work, but i kept thinking about sara. then, rhiannon walked in. this confused me because i don't have her in any of my classes, although i have seen her talking to sara.

"hi miss james. i'm here to get sara's work" she said as she walked up to my desk.

"oh sure. it's only this packet she missed" i said, handing her sara's homework. she mumbled a small 'thank you', and began to walk away.

"um, rhiannon? do you, by any chance know why sara wasn't in class today?" i said in a quiet voice. she seemed to be uncomfortable with the question, and i noticed that her mascara was smeared, like she had been crying. she paused for a good 10 seconds before she answered me.

"she, uh, is in the hospital" she mumbled. this made my heart drop to my feet. why the hell was she in the hospital? was she going to be okay?

"what happened?" i asked, growing nervous.