The Perfect Ride

Chapter 30

**Sadie's POV**

It was June 4th. The past couple days felt like a bad dream. Jess and I were broken up. Roz was 12 weeks and no longer riding. I hadn't left my hotel room but one time, and that was to come to the arena for our show. The only good thing to come out of this was that Ellie was visiting again. Other than that, my heart felt like it wasn't even in my body anymore. Probably because it wasn't. Jess had always had my heart in the palm of his hand, and he crushed it. Roz was even down now since she wasn't riding anymore. She didn't even come to the show with me tonight. So currently, Ellie and I were sitting in my dressing room. It was 5:30, so the doors were opened. Usually, I'd be hanging out with Jess and Roz, but to be honest, I wanted these three days to be over.

"Hey, you wanna go see Cooper?" Ellie asks. She thought he was cute, but she was too young for him. She was barely 21 and he was almost 28.

"No" I answer. I was lying on the couch on my phone. She was sitting in my makeup chair.

"You wanna...go see the arena?" She asks.

"No".

"You want to-".

"I don't wanna do anything, Ell. I want this day over with" I say sternly.

"I know you do, but you're here for seven more months, so you might as well get used to this" She says. I sigh.

"God, don't remind me" I say rolling my eyes.

"Hey, remembered when you couldn't wait to be on tour?" She asks.

"Yeah, but that was before I had my heart broken. If i stayed home line I wanted to, this wouldn't have happened" I say. She scoffs.

"Oh, please. You said that last time you and I talked. If you hadn't come, you wouldn't have met the love of your life" She says, reminding me of what I'd told her a couple weeks ago.

"I hate him" I say.

"You couldn't hate him if you wanted too".

"No, Ell. I hate him, because I know that there is absolutely nothing in this world that would ever make me stop loving him. I can't stand it" I say, almost slamming my phone on the coffee table.

"Well, you know something?" She asks standing up about to walk out the door.

"What?" I ask.

"I bet he hates you too" She says before disappearing. I shot up. If he loved me, why the hell did he leave me.

***Jess's POV***

I should be at the arena right now. I should be watching Saide and Roz do their routine and being so proud that she's all mine. Only, she isn't. I should've told her the truth on Monday, but I was too ashamed. I wished I had been a man and went after her that day, but it's kind of hard on crutches. Roz had been telling me how she is, but Sadie didn't know. She told Sadie that she wasn't talking to me anymore now too, but it wasn't true. Roz and I talked a lot. Probably because Roz is the only one who knew the truth about how I felt. I wish I'd had the courage to tell Sadie. I felt so empty without her. I started to write texts, but always erased them. I called, but hung up before she could answer. I knew I screwed up, and I hated myself for it. I was still so in love with her, and I couldn't even hide. It. I just hoped she would still be in love with me too.

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By the time 7PM rolled around, Roz was sitting with me in my room.

"Sadie's riding about now" She says. She was depressed she wasn't riding anymore.

"Yeah".

"Have you talked to her?" She asks.

"No".

"Has she tried to talk to you?" She asks again.

"No".

"Are you going to talk to her?".

"Maybe".

"Jesus, Jess. Do you think you could give more than a one world answer?" She almost yells.

"Sorry". I felt her glare at me.

"You can't be moping around here, feeling sorry for yourself when you haven't even made an effort" She says.

"Everyrime I try, I end up stopping" I say. "I can't help but think she'll be better off".

"Oh, please" She scoffs.

"I'll talk to her when you tell her you still talk to me" I say with an evil grin.

"Oh, yeah. Then she can hate us both. When she's gone, you're my friend still. When she's here, I hate you" She says. I couldn't help but laugh.

"Nobody hates me more than me" I say.

"Oh, I beg to differ" She says.

"What's that supposed to mean?".

"Sadie hates you" She says. My eyes widen. She laughed. "She hates you because you broke her heart, and yet she still wants you".

"You think?" I ask.

"Jess, the girl said she wanted to marry you! Those feelings don't just go away. When you feel that deeply for someone, they'll always be there".

"Yeah, I guess" I say.

"Talk to her. Promise me" She says before standing up to leave.

"I promise" I say. She nodded before walking out of the room. After that promise, I'd only ever be making one more. And that would be to Sadie at an altar. I pray to God she'll have me again. I can't do life without her.