The Perfect Ride

Chapter 38

Friday, Saturday, and Sunday came and went. They were all such fun shows and seeing myself in a magazine was amazing. But, we were on the road again. Jess, Roz, and I. Just like how it should be. Jess and I were in the lounge.

"Baby, do you want to watch a movie?" Jess asks. He had just got back from using the bathroom. He also had on no shirt, which made my heart race.

"No" I say. He sat down next to me. I cuddled into his chest. "Can we just stay here? In this moment, forever?".

"Forever is a long time" He says.

"It is. But, I still don't think forever is enough time with you" I say. He chuckled and shifted causing me to sit up.

"Baby, can I ask you something?" He asks. 

"Yeah?".

"Well, December is coming fast. Then, this tour is over. You know, I live in Texas, you live in Montana-".

"I don't want to talk about this" I say and stand up. He catches my arm.

"Babe, no. Listen-".

"Jess, I said no!" I say sternly and yank my arm from his grip. "I don't want to talk about this". I turn away and walk to the front of the bus. He followed.

"Sadie, you do this every time I bring this up. It's important and we need to talk about it" He says.

"No, we don't!" I say throwing my hands up. "We don't need to talk about this. You wanna know why? Because it's four months from now. We have four months to not worry about it!".

"Like I said, four months comes fast!" He yells. "Our future depends on this!". Before I could respond, Roz walks in. We had woken her up.

"What the hell are you two yelling about?' She asks.

"I'm trying to talk to Sadie about what's going to happen when the tour is over, but she won't listen" Jess explains. Roz knew from our conversation a couple days ago that I wouldn't have it. She looks at me, and I stare at her. She sighs and turns to Jess.

"Jess, just...give it a rest?" She asks. He threw his hands up.

"She's acting like this isn't going to happen if she doesn't talk about it. She keeps running away from it like she always does!" He yells.

"I know it will happen! That's what fucking scares me and I don't want to talk!" I yell at him with tears in my eyes.

"Then talk!!" He yells. I fall onto the couch with my head in my hands.

"Jess, go!" Roz shouts. He groans and storms to the back. He slammed the door to the lounge shut. Roz say down beside me. I look up at her.

"W-When December comes...I don't know if Jess and I will work" I say quietly. "Long distance? I don't know Roz".

"Oh, Sadie. You shouldn't say stuff that like" She says.

"But, it's true. I keep telling myself that maybe if I don't think about it, it won't happen, but I know it will. I know it's sneaking up on us fast. But if I think about it, my heart just breaks".

"Why didn't you tell him that?" She asks.

"I...I don't know. We know we love each other and we want to be together, but...saying it is a lot harder than making it happen" I say.

"Sadie, love is like a battle. You battle so many things. So many ups and downs. Love is hard. Love is scary. Sometimes you fight like cats and dogs, but when the sun goes down you still love each other and nothing changes that" She says.

"Yeah, I know" I say.

"And, love will test you. It will throw things at you out of nowhere. You'll question it so much" She keeps going on her tangent about love.

"So, what do I do, Roz?" I ask. A smile creeps on her face.

"It's simple" She says. "You find the one worth fighting for. You don't let go. You go through it together and you learn".

"I wear this ring as a promise to love Jess through thick and thin. A promise to always choose him over anyone else. A promise of a future. A promise of forever".

"So, what does that mean to you?" She asks. I look down and my ring for a few seconds then back up to Roz.

"It means I found the man worth fighting for".