The Perfect Ride

Chapter 32

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Another day gone by, another day without Jess. Thankfully, it was Sunday, June 6th, and we had a break from shows. We were heading to Canada. Jess went back on the guys bus, so it was just Roz and I on ours. Plus, Ellie. We were currently all in the lounge. I was laid down on one side, Roz on the other, and Ellie in the middle.

"Roz, how's the baby doing?" Ellie asks.

"It's good. Starting to grow a lot. I'm starting to always look bloated" She says. We all chuckle.

"When do you find out the gender?" Ellie says.

"In 8 weeks. Fingers crossed for a girl" She says.

"Boy" I reply.

"Oh, you just want a son" Ellie says.

"Not true. I just wanted a brother" I say. She gives me a glare.

"If it's a boy, then Je-".

"Roz" Ellie intervened.

"Uh, Jesus will have a sense of humor" She says, trying to save herself. I laughed at her attempt.

"It's okay, Roz. He's..your friend too" I say. She smiled softly. I'll admit, I hated that they still talked, but what could I do?

"Well, anyway...name ideas?" Ellie asks.

"None yet. I guess I'll decide when it gets here" She explains. They went on to have a conversation about the baby. I just stared at the ceiling. The thought of Jess raced through my mind. Seemed like I thought about nothing else these days. It has been almost a week since we broke up, and I couldn't t help but think he should be here instead of Ellie. Don't get me wrong, I love my sister, but...Jess was my love. I was in so much pain knowing he didn't feel the same way anymore.

"Sadie. Earth to Sadie". I snap out of my daze.

"Yeah?" I ask looking over at Roz. She was standing up.

"Do you want a drink?" She asks.

"Oh. No, thanks" I say. She disappears into the kitchen.

"You good?" Ellie asks. I sigh and sit up.

"Yeah. I'm okay" I say.

"Thinking?" She asks.

"Thinking about the fact that's tomorrow makes seven days since you and Jess broke up?" She asks. It's like she read my mind. I just look at her. "Do you want a hug?".

"No" I say standing up to walk to my bunk. "I want him".

***Jess's POV***

Being on the bus with the boys was weird. It smelled like sweat and BO rather than the lemon perfume that Sadie always wore. That scent alone could drive me wild. The raspberry taste that lingered on my lips right after kissing her melted me. I missed that. I missed her. All the boys were playing games in the back while I sat in the front.

"Hey, man. You okay?" Cooper asks, sitting next to me.

"Uh, yeah. I'm good" I say.

"You talked to Sadie?" He asks.

"Come on, you already know the answer to that" I say. He chuckled.

"Yeah. I just wish that answer would change" I say.

"Yeah, me too" I say.

"Talk to her" He says.

"I can't. I told her she was suffocating. She isn't going to want anything to do with me anymore" I say.

"Jess, talk to her. That woman is crazy about you. You're crazy about her. Talk to her before it's too late. Before you can't anymore" He says. I sigh.

"What would I even say?" I ask.

"Hmm, maybe just...'hey'. You can't go wrong with that" He says. I just look at him. "You love her don't you?".

"I...love her more than I have ever loved anything else in my entire life. I love her more than a perfect 8 second ride. More than a Texas sunrise. More than I love myself. I would kill for that woman. I would die for her, Cooper. It's simple...she is the love of my life".

"Well, then I think you know what to say" He says. I watch him disappear to the back. I sigh and grab my phone. I scroll to find Sadie's contact in my phone and click her name. The last text message she sent me said:

"i love you, cowboy. more than anything else in the world".

Tears formed in my eyes. My heart raced as I typed a text message and pressed send. A plain and simple text.

***Sadie's POV***

My nap was interrupted by my phone buzzing. I turned to check who it was, then my heart dropped. It was Jess.

"sadie...i need to see you".