The Perfect Ride

Chapter 31

***Sadie's POV***

The show was good yesterday, and we had another one today. I felt so numb. Like I wasn't here to do a job. I couldn't even really remember anything about yesterday. I was there physically, but mentally I was in Little Rock where Jess and I had out first date and danced to Niko Moon.

When Ellie and I got back to our room, she went to the pool. It was a 24/7 pool. I just went to the room. Roz was in there watching TV. She was watching Heartland. It was one of our favorite shows, and it was the episode that Ty died in.

"He and Amy were so cute" Roz says wiping a tear away. I sit down beside her. "Pregnancy hormones are real".

"Yeah" I say. I focused my attention on the TV. I wasn't really paying attention to it until Amy started having a flashback of her whole relationship with Ty. My heart stopped when I heard "Dance With Me" by Niko Moon playing in the background. My head immediately fell in my hands and Roz immediately hugged me.

"I'll turn it off" She says reaching for the remote.

"No, don't. It's...nice to hear it" I say rasing up. "Just...memories".

"I'm sorry, Sadie". I stayed silent. I took a deep breath. A few moments later, her phone started ringing. I went to pick it up for her from the table. "No. Sadie, don't". My jaw dropped.

"It's Jess?" I question. "Roz, why is Jess-".

"Just, give me the phone" She says and rips it from my hands. She declined the call.

"You lied" I say standing up, crossing my arms. "You told me you weren't talking to him anymore".

"I know, Sadie. I'm-".

"You lied to me! I'm your bestfriend and you're talking to the man who broke my  heart!" I yell at her. 

"I'm sorry!" She yells back. "He's my friend too! And, what am I supposed to do when I'm here all alone? I can't stay cooped up in this room all day!".

"Come with Ellie and I!" I yell..

"No! I'm fine here. I sit and spend the nights with Jess. It's fine, Sadie. Damn" She says, finally getting an even tone in her voice.

"Why...didn't you just tell me?" I ask, sitting back down.

"I knew you'd be mad. I knew you'd freak out" She says, sitting beside me.

"I didn't mean to yell" I say.

"I know. But, can I ask you a question?" I nod. "Why does it matter?".

"I...I don't know. I just...it's like he's everywhere, Roz. I wake up and he's the first thing on my mind. I go to sleep and dream of him. I see his eyes every time I look to the sky. I can't get rid of him. Knowing you still talk to him doesn't help, but he's your friend and it isn't fair of me to say you can't be. It just still hurts" I explain. She sighed.

"You ever think he feels the same way?" She asks.

"Why would he?".

"Because, he loves you" She answered. "And, when I say that, I mean it. He loves you, Sadie. And when two people love each other, they should be together".

"Do you think I'll ever love someone again?" I ask her.

"Yes. I think you love me, and your sister, and you'll love this little peanut" She says. "But...I think you're in love with Jess. I don't think that will ever change".

"You wanna know something?".

"What?".

"I don't think that will change either".