MEETING WITH MAHASHAKTI

The Incredible Happened

As I lay on the thick soft bed,I began to feel sleepy.I didn't know when I had fallen into a deep slumber.In the middle of the night I felt a tug at my hair and as I opened my sleepy eyes,I was bewildered to find two shadows!I examined them with a creepy feeling. One was Ramakrishna and the other was Kali...!I froze for a while and didn't know what to say or do. Ramakrishna appeared to be full of laughter,mischief and wit tempered with apparent vulgarity.The divine Mother was only smiling and listening to us.Ramakrishna again and again used the swear word sala. He gave a lecture on my valued fondness for sleep.I was annoyed with them since they had interrupted my sleep. So when the master's lengthy  lecture drew to a close,I shot my angry question at them,"If people don't  sleep,how can they stay healthy?You want me to stay awake all night and then completely go mad..!What kind of saint are you? You also use bad filthy words for me?"

"You are a donkey..You understand nothing. Do you think all the true ascetics and sanyasis slept like you? Like a log of wood as you do? Try to understand my explanation. Instead of being heavily asleep at night,you must meditate and you will derive intense joy out of meditation.What happens when you meditate?When you are lost in meditation you remain totally detached from the external world. Your mind is so richly focused and concentrated that you can think of nothing.You even forget your physical existence.Both in sleep and meditation concentration plays a pivotal role.In both cases you forget the body. Only worldly wise fools fall asleep when they experience the concentration of the mind but yogis stay awake and derive intense spiritual bliss from meditation.A sadhu enters into a state of meditation called samadhi which can last for an incredibly long period of time,three days,four days and even more.Now you have become a spirit.Yes or no...?That's why you are not able to sleep properly.The spirit doesn't sleep but the body does.If you force an ordinary person to meditate for a single night,he is bound to experience extreme suffering and great discomfort and eventually get demented in case he continues it for a few days. Since you have the realisation  that the body is nothing and the spirit is everything,we are compelling you to follow us.Sonny everything comes with a price...!You will get plenty of happiness and mental poise from meditation. Get up and meditate."

There was sense in what the master said. I sat cross-legged on my bed and began my meditation.It was 2:07 in the night by my wrist watch. On the floor were asleep two of my nephews. One of them got up wanting to go to the toilet.Rajesh was astonished and amused to see me sitting in the posture of Lord Buddha...!All the others came to see me..!I was able to hear their supressed laughter.My legs were hurting unbearably.

My sister was crying aloud and inconsolablly
:"What if my brother goes mad and wanders the streets!" My brother-in-law and the others laughed a lot.Then my brother-in-law succeeded  in convincing me that I was having hallucinations because of some mental imbalancing. He advised me to sleep.He also talked about a girl for me.He believed that if I got married,I would get back my lost mental stability. The counselling continued for about half an hour.

I didn't know what to do,either to comply with my brother-in-law's request or to keep my promise with Ramakrishna and Kali.As I was harping on two words "Ramakrishna" and "Kali," they had taken away and hidden the photo of Ramakrishna I talked about earlier.Now I had nothing to look at and taste the pure nectar that its contemplation would give me.I thought of Ramakrishna and Kali and wept bitterly when my nephews were snoring in their sleep lying on the floor.The moment I visualised the master's image tears of pure ecstasy welled from my eyes.

After a lot of musing,I decided in favour of a short sleep.But only after a few minutes I was awake with Ramakrishna standing in front of me with reproach in his eyes.I was nonchalant. His face was the same that I had noticed in the photos."Oh Lord, can I get emancipated from the worldly bondage in this life?"

"Yes, you will achieve it but I think you have to face a lot of waiting and delay.The old masi is right. She has made correct predictions.But it's not good to waste your priceless time.Meditate as much as you can."

"What will happen if I keep meditating every moment?" I asked.Instead of Mother Kali,Ramakrishna gave me most befitting and the most irrefutable rational answers.

"You will lose your body consciousness. You will see yourself in everything both living and non-living.A time will come when the world's enticements will have no impact on you. Then alone will you live the truly divine life."

Then I asked a question:"You were a devotee of Mother Kali. She has millions of devotees who keep praying to her every moment.How is she able to listen to them at the same time?Or she listens to the virtuous only one by one?"

"She is present in every soul.She answers everyone from within them.Got it?"

"Then where are you from?" I asked.

"You have seen many times Kali and I entering into your heart after explaining things to you.We live in your soul. Only you want to see and treat us as outsiders."

Another question came to my mind. So I said,"An American gentleman has written that when you were living you once went to a hospital in America where he was admitted and blessed him with complete cure from cancer."

"That is a fact.But I had no need to go to America. I was already present there. I was in  that patient's very soul when he was praying to me thinking that I was at Belur in Calcutta."

I became thoughtful and said to myself,"Am I having a supernatural experience?Is it all hallucinations only?"

"Make sure whether you are having hallucinations? How many proofs do you need,you dog?Go to hell.Your thoughts are still racing after fame,money and  beautiful women.How can God save you?...."

The next day I spent my time watching TV all day. Again at night both of them made many appearances to me  disturbing my sleep from time to time. Firstly,the master told me not to accept any eatables from the old lady who lived opposite my sister's house,nor to touch her feet reverently. Secondly,he assured me that he would "fill my tank"( in his own words).This was an assurance for maintaining pure thoughts and strict brahmacharya(continence).Thirdly,I was told to cultivate spirituality because that was the only thing worth having in this world.

"Can I get a good government job? "

He said teasingly,"Government job? Forget those things. Arrangements have been made for you not to allow you any worldly indulgences..."

"I don't want you..Nor Mother Kali..Stop appearing  to me henceforth."

"You greedy pig..!You still love wallowing in the worldly mire...!" Next he darted into my heart and I tried to go to sleep but couldn't.

Next morning two Muslim men came to my sister's house. They praised Lord Shiva and Mother Kali beyond my comprehension.I told them about the Muslim old man who would expose his genitals to me sarcastically a few days ago. Their knowledge of the Gita and the vedas filled me with disbelief and wonder.

My brother-in-law was worried about my disturbed sleep.So we visited a doctor. The doctor gave us some pills and said it was a very minor case and I would be all right soon. I came home and had my lunch. Then I took two of the pills. In a very short time I became heavily drowsy and became sure of having a very deep slumber.I was intensely happy that I was going to ward off those appearances.

A shower of abuse rained upon me. I said,"Go to hell with your meditation..!I heard foul dirty words hurled at me from nowhere. They were harsh angry words suffused with emotion coming from a tear-choked voice. I thought it was none other than the same Ramakrishna. But I could scarcely believe it was him.But a few months back going through a passage on the internet I came to know that Ramakrishna used dirty rustic slangs when provoked.Anothor line "God is in the vagina" in the passage also shocked me like nothing before.The master saw no difference between a handful of gold coins and a handful of pebbles.The anus and the mouth were equally sacred.

I was wondering why I was asked not to accept any eatables from the old lady neighbour and not to touch her feet.Was there something wrong with her?