MEETING WITH MAHASHAKTI

The Lolling Tongue

I have already told you about the excruciating pain and afflictions I had to suffer during the year 1997.After that I was filled with deep loathing for Kali and Shiva. Actually I abused them to my heart's content. I told them every now and then I was not a fool to be trapped by then. Even deep within me there was plenty of rancour for them both.

But when I think of my childhood and recall my experience with the madwoman whose milk I had sucked,my eyes fill with tears of joy. I feel an intense feeling of gratitude to the Divine Mother. Her predictions came true. She had said to my mother:"I will again come when my child is grown and the Lord too will come."

Both of them did come. My experiences with Sai and Guruji convinced me that the madwoman had accurately predicted my future. Here I would like to disclose to you two more predictions two sadhus had made on my future.When I was small and was playing in the village street,a sadhu came close to me and contemplated me for a while. As my mother approached him,he said with his eyebrows raised:"Mother..!This is your child? He will be a man of great wisdom and go abroad and acquire a lot of fame. But you can't see him then."
Right from the beginning of my childhood, my mother had been proudly harping on the prediction. Every time she would say tearfully:"You will go abroad and then I will die."
When I grew older,I would make fun of my mother who had believed in such a stupid prediction.Mother would say:"Don't be so daft...! You still have the chance to go abroad..." This was the first prediction. Secondly when my mother had once gone to Puri,she met a sadhu there.She struck a conversation with the sadhu.The old sadhu who was from Ayodhya told her that I would go abroad but she couldn't see all that.Since two sadhus had made the same prediction,mother firmly believed in it. But then I thought mother said all that only out of her blind love for me.She passed away in 2015.

Now I often pondered that prediction. Was mother telling me a lie?I had not the slightest inclination to visit any foreign country. I did during my early days have a yearning to visit America and Europe. Also African countries. I had a strong desire to visit Africa. The black people of Africa were the best human beings in my opinion and that was because of their simplicity,humility and innocence. Later I came to know about their incredible talents and wisdom.

Although I suppress Kali and Shiva within me,I can't escape from them altogether. When I contemplate Sai or even Guruji,Jagannath,Hanuman,Laxmi etc,I get startled often to find each of them very often with a lolling tongue. Sai Baba with a lolling tongue? Jagannath with a lolling tongue? Hanuman with a lolling tongue? She manifests to me in many ways. I too have a deep sense of guilt gnawing at my insides. "Mother,show me the right path and take me into your lap...!Forgive me...!"

Now I don't want to visit either America or England and other European countries. This is because I have developed a virulent dislike for their prevailing ways of life today.Once I watched a programme called Paternity Court. An American woman was there to know who her father was. There were thirteen possible fathers! The entire society appeared to be thrown out of gear. There were utter anarchy,lawlessness and chaos. All good moral values had become extinct. Children were not important. Sex was of supreme importance.Boyfriends and girl friends ruled the roost everywhere.
Promotion of animalism and fostering of brutish instincts in men and women was seemingly the most significant duty of the legal system and the governments. India is also marching shoulder to shoulder with her European cronies.Sex and Money are the two ugly blind Monsters which are responsible for the perpetrating of all kinds of crime and violence.Since they are blind,they don't hesitate to walk out on anyone and anything.Sex and Money make the most clearly sighted totally blind;this is the peculiarity common to both.Children are the worst sufferers. Intellectuals are all set to turn the world into a vast temple of gays and lesbians,pimps and prostitutes.

I have quoted the reasons why I never want to visit the West and America. I want to die in my own country and state..in my own village. But there have to be iron-nerved men and women who can turn this world into a perfect heaven where there will be no dearth of unselfishness;where we have men and women ready to make extreme sacrifices because they understand that that can give them peace and joy not measurable by any human standards.

I see Mother Kali in each and every deity I can think of. When I visualise Jesus I do see his lolling tongue. Once I was going to Chandrasekharpur to teach a girl doing English Honours.I was in a most disgusting hurry. I was already late.When the traffic signal was given I tried to ride away. But my hurry caused a terrible situation. Before my arrival at the traffic post,I had seen Baba's picture again and again. Baba with a lolling tongue!But why?Because of the haste my bike slightly grazed a silver maruti alto car.It was an invisible scratch but the car owner made a mountain of a mole hill.A smooth-talking police officer joined the car owner. My bike had also caused another invisible scratch on another black car belonging to the hefty police officer. He was not shouting but trying his best to spot the damage I had caused to the car. The traffic inspector had taken the motorcycle key.He said he wanted to check my driving licence. Praying to Sai and Mother Kali I handed my tattered driving licence to the the traffic inspector.As he was examining the stuff mindfully I was in a soup.The driving licence had expired six months ago...!"Baba help..!O Mother help..!"
The traffic inspector said,"What is your occupation?" I said,"I am a teacher and writer."

He said,"You are an educated person! And you are a writer? Why don't you laminate your DL?
This is an important document. Get it laminated today..!"

I nodded obediently. The inspector softened his stance a little,smiled a little and gave my DL back. I went to the RTO office directly heartily thanking the image of Sai with a lolling tongue.On another occasion I was very sad.It was Guru Purnima. I knew many devotees of Guruji,my spiritual master must be giving their Guru bouquets of roses on that sacred day. I was in Bhubaneswar at Santoshi Vihar.My eyes collected tears as I was contemplating a big photo of Guruji. Guruji face appeared to be having a lolling tongue! "My goodness..!" I exclaimed. My grouse was based on the long distance between Guruji and me.He was in Delhi and I was in Bhubaneswar.Eyes still tearing,I pulled out a copy of "Baba May I Answer?" written by Guruji. I opened it at page 19.The words I read were as follows:"There are many people around me here but actually they are far away from me but there are others in far off places who are close to me." I couldn't believe my eyes!