The Maxwell's

Grief

Joshua's Pov
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Justin and I have been friends ever since we were little kids. He is like family to all my brothers and I. Asher likes to say that Justin "keeps me in check" but little does he know.

I woke up this morning and something didn't feel right but it's probably just me overthinking. As soon as I entered the kitchen all my brothers were off in a daze. Monty sitting there with his black eye from yesterday, Marco staring at the wall and Vincent doing the same.
"What's the problem." I ask looking to all my brothers confused.
"Sit down hermano." Asher said in a monotone voice. I did as I was told waiting for them to tell me what the problem is.
"Justin is dead hermano." Asher said looking directly at me.
"His house was ambushed last night there were no survivors." Vince chimed in.

I looked to them all in shock waiting for them to say this was some sort of joke. My face paled and I ran to the bathroom. I leaned over the toilet emptying whatever I had for dinner last night. Tears were flowing down my face uncontrollably. I heard footsteps behind me but I didn't bother to look to see who it was.

I then felt a pair of rough hands on my back now knowing it was Marco. At this point I was full on sobbing choking on my own tears.
"I'm so sorry hermano.." Asher said sympathetically. I threw up again and Asher picked me up getting me away from the toilet so I could calm down. He sat on the couch pulling me onto his lap. Vince and Mont following in a little after us.

Asher held me to his chest running his hand through my hair and up and down my back. Montogromy was also in hysterics, Vince held him and assured him that everything would be alright. Would everything be okay? Every time I get fucking attached to someone they die.
"I c-cant breathe." I stuttered out between gasps for air. Asher took me off his lap for a second grabbing my inhaler. He passed it to me and put me back on his lap while I slowed my breathing, taking puffs of the inhaler when needed.

Ashers Pov
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As soon as I heard the news of Justin my heart shattered for Joshua. He and Justin have been best friends for years on end. The moment he heard the news I saw his face break down and my heart sunk. This kid never gets a break from anything.

Joshua doesn't handle grief well. He shuts everyone out and bottles up his anger until he just explodes.
"Asher help me.." Josh said his breathing hitched.
"Josh you need to breathe in your inhaler and relax for a minute." I instructed him calmly. He took slow puffs of his inhaler as needed and started to calm down. He hid his face in my chest as I ran a hand through his brunette hair. Mont was also in hysterics but Vince had a good handle on that. I know it may seem as if I hate my brothers but the truth is, I'd do anything for them.
Joshua's Pov
Liv came over a couple hours later because Asher said I needed to get my mind off of things for at least an hour. As soon as she got here she pulled my head on her lap and held me till my eyes started to get heavy but I stayed awake.