The Maxwell's

Tough Love

Joshua's Pov

Marco and I then sat together on the steps entering their house talking about how things are going to change. I don't think I'm ready for change, I don't like it but I guess I don't have a choice now do I.

"We are going to enroll you into the same school as Blake and you can continue your sports there because I know you like that." He said ruffling my hair causing me to smile a little.

"I want you to come see me when you want to talk J. I know about Justin and I'm so sorry buddy" He said pulling me into a side hug. My heart sunk. I'm going to have to leave my girlfriend and the town where Justin is buried.

"I can't leave the town where Justin is buried Marco. I just can't do that. I'm sorry." I said to him wiping my eyes with the backs of my hand. He then placed a reassuring hand on my back and I looked back into his brown eyes.

"You have to buddy. I know it's going to be hard but you have to do this. This part isn't a choice. I can promise you that I'll let you go visit his grave sight whenever you please how bout that?" he asked gently causing me to nod slowly. Our conversation just progressed of him telling me the rules of the house and what he expects of me from here on out. We then entered back into the house where Marco let me go shower and prepare myself to go to sleep.

I stepped into the giant bathroom that I now possess, looking at everything inside including the giant shower. I turned the shower really hot and stepped inside. In the shower I was thinking of how I'm going to break the news to Olivia that we can't continue our relationship. Thats going to be another hard conversation to have.

As I stepped out of the shower with a towel wrapped around my waist, I stepped into my closet choosing a pair of grey sweats to wear to bed. After changing into my sweatpants I undid the black covers attached to my bed making my way slowly inside them. I put on my glasses I needed to use for reading and writing and pulled out my journal that I now keep just incase Asher makes it out alive.

𝘿𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙤𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙙,𝙏𝙤𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙢𝙮 𝙛𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙮, 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨. 𝙒𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙄𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙣 𝙈𝙖𝙛𝙞𝙖 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙨. 𝙄𝙣 𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙑𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙈𝙤𝙣𝙩. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙖𝙡𝙨𝙤 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙣𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝘼𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙩𝙤 𝙎𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙖𝙜𝙤. 𝙂𝙤𝙙 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚'𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤. 𝙄'𝙢 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙙𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝙡𝙚𝙛𝙩. 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙠 𝙪𝙥 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙮 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙙 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧. 𝙇𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙬 𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙥 𝙤𝙛 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚. 𝙄 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙖𝙛𝙞𝙖 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙜𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙬𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙛𝙛 𝙬𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤. 𝙈𝙖𝙧𝙘𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢. 𝙉𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨. 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙗𝙞𝙜 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮 𝙛𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙪𝙨 𝙙𝙤.𝙎𝙚𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙤𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙖𝙡,𝙅𝙤𝙨𝙝𝙪𝙖 𝙈𝙖𝙭𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙡.

I closed up my journal and opened my phone to text Olivia. This is what I was dreading, I really do love her but its just not going to work in my situation right now..

𝗝𝗼𝘀𝗵🥍🛹

Hey Liv. I know this is really sudden but I really just can't mentally be in a relationship right now. I just lost my brothers and I have to grieve and its going to be hard. I wouldn't ever forgive myself if I dragged you down with me. So I think this should be the end of us. Just know that I'll always love you.

𝗟𝗶𝘃🦋

Josh please don't do this. I love you and need you in my life. You're my everything. Please

𝗝𝗼𝘀𝗵🥍🛹

I'm sorry.

With that I closed down my phone with tears streaming down my face slowly. Why did I just do that. I broke her heart.. What kind of person am I?

"Fuck!" I yelled slamming my fists off the wall as tears streamed down my face again slowly. Marco then slowly walked into my room sitting on the edge of my bed waiting for me to talk whenever I was ready.

"I broke up with her because I thought it was best and now I feel like an absolute asshole." I said raking my hands through my jet black hair.

"J you need to breathe. You did what was best for you that's all that matters in the long run. You aren't at the right mental state right now to have a relationship. Its for the best." He said as I sat next to him and he rubbed his hand up and down my back. I then raked my hands through my hair again because that's one of my habits I do when I'm stressed. Marco then grabbed my wrists from my head placing them on my lap.

"Don't pull at your hair buddy you'll get a headache. Come on let's get you to bed you start your new school in the morning with Blake." He said as I made my way under the covers again slowly laying my head on the pillow comfortably.

"After school can I go to my house and get my stuff?" I asked Marco half asleep. Through my cracked eyes I saw a slight frown on Marcos face.

"Yeah buddy we will see what tomorrow holds." He said gently as he exited my room turning the lights off. As he shut my door slow tears rolled down my cheeks. I'm not ready for this new life. I want my brothers. Thats all I want and I can't have them. But you know what everyone says. Life is unfair you just have to roll with the punches but it seems that I'm in a full on boxing match waiting for my opponent to stop punching me but he never does.

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𝗪𝗼𝘄 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗲. 𝟮 𝘂𝗽𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗜'𝗺 𝗼𝗻 𝗮 𝗿𝗼𝗹𝗹. 𝗔𝗻𝘆𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝘂𝘆𝘀 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿? 𝗜 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝘂𝘆𝘀' 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀!