Break My Heart (Mew x Gulf)

Chapter 39: Letting Go

A round of jubilant, chemically induced giggles hollowly echo in the small room.

Misty grey clouds float in the air, slowly evaporating away from sight before more replace them. Exhalation after exhalation, each time bringing a new cloud of smoke into the room.

Mew and Gulf sat up against the elder's bed, the naked upper halves of their bodies leaning against the cold wall as they pass a joint back and forth.

Music played from Mew's phone, songs of all different languages and types filling in background as time went on. It was mid morning and the two males were just lazing about, it was Sunday after all and they were still worn out from the previous night's events.

Mew had suggested the smoke after they both came to terms with the fact that either of them weren't going to do jack shit for the rest of the day. So why not take advantage of the situation and get high? It had seemed like the best option, and they weren't complaining.

"Okay okay, first blowjob experience, receiving one." Asks Gulf before taking another hit of the joint and passing it back to the elder.

"Ahh, honestly, I don't really remember. Like the physically feeling, but I do remember it being super awkward, like neither of us really knew what we were doing and it was just really awkward. You?"

Gulf releases an embarrassed sigh, his eyes and nose crinkling in distaste. "Come on, I told you mine." Coaxes Mew nudging him gently, Gulf huffs.

"Okay. I think I was like fifteen or something, maybe sixteen? But anyway, my friend at the time had invited me to this party, I wasn't that interested but I agreed anyway. So yeah, there I was at this total strangers house surrounded by a bunch of drunk people trying my best to somehow conjure up the ability to disappear when my friend comes back and he's with these two girls," he reaches over to take the smoke, inhaling a big drag.

"He was practically sucking the one's face off the moment they sat down and the other came and sat next to me. She was clearly drunk and we were both just sitting there when she turned to me and asked 'do you want a blowjob?' I honestly hadn't a clue what do or say so I just said 'sure' or whatever. I mean, what else was there to do? So then she's dragging me into one of the other rooms, and ya know... I did not know what to do or how to act so I just went with it. But then as she was going down she maked this weird noise and then next thing I know she pulls away and pukes all over the floor. I guess she's failed to remember she had a very strong gag reflex."

Gulf's expression shows nothing but disgust at the memory and Mew can't help himself as he laughs at the story, his lips stretching wide as he slaps his knee. "Awe fuck, that's gross."

"Yeah, you weren't even the one who experienced it. I left the room right after that and went straight home."

Mew soon regains his composure, the smile however still remains on his face. He takes a few moments to think of the next question as he holds the joint's smoke in his lungs, exhaling it out his nose. "Okay, how about your first time then?" Mew chuckles as Gulf lets out a loud groan, slumping slightly.

"Pulling out all the stops today aren't we?"

"What can I say? I like watching others suffer..." he jokes, teasingly batting his eyelids.

"Aaahh... okay." He sighs resting his head against the wall, trying to recollect the memory. "It was my seventeenth birthday, with my first proper serious girlfriend, well, as serious as a high school relationship can be I guess. My parents weren't home and we were alone, and what else are two horny teenagers going to do when they're left alone together, they're going to fuck obviously. I don't remember too much but all things considered, it wasn't actually that bad for my first time. It was obviously a bit awkward and I was nervous as anything, but it wasn't that bad of an experience."