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b u t t e r f l y

b u t t e r f l y
/ˈbədərˌflī/
noun
1.
a nectar-feeding insect with two pairs of large, typically brightly colored wings that are covered with microscopic scales. Butterflies are distinguished from moths by having clubbed or dilated antennae, holding their wings erect when at rest, and being active by day.

dear butterfly,
i too wish to fly

i want to be like you
change like you

i want them to forget me
and look at me again
and see
something beautiful

i want the world to be mine to search
travel through my soul to find
the freedom
beyond my mind

i want to see everything
with my many lenses over laying my eyes
i want to shift my view
i want to be different
i want to be just like you

fill my days with
a whole lot of
beautiful nothingness

feel satisfied
without
any of them

i don't want my world to collapse
just because the time is bending
i don't want everything i gave
to start ending

i rather
just give in
and start mending the soul they broke

the heart that is always breaking
i convinced myself i have nothing left to give
but i know
my love is magnetic
my love is important
my love is imperfect
but my love is absolutely worth it

i am a divine woman

and if i
could use my love
not for someone else
for once

i think
i could be just like you

although i am weary
the only difference is
i have someone in my corner
i am not alone
and he will give me rest

and he will take everything away
to show man
there isn't a tinge in my faith

i believe everything happens for a reason
and i wonder
when i change
will they change too?
will we be the same?

or will it all be different?
i have never been so
self-sufficient
i wonder
will i be able to submit again

and give my love
the love you denied me of

will i feel happy about it?
or will i find reason

i think i will be so different
that it won't even make any sense of who i was
you can't change it, only he can
and through him
i don't want to burn your photos or our memories

if anything
i just want to heal the heart that they broke
not the one that you attempted to break
it broke for a day
and a day only
because god knows me
i can only take so much pain
i can only listen to the same negativity for so long
and i'm always left with my choices

it's funny, and kind of bittersweet
he always asked so much of me
when he hardly changed a thing
but my efforts
won't go unseen

i will try to erase those bitter feelings
and keep the love that i have inside
but i won't give it
im tired of giving my energy
relentlessly
to someone
who did not see
the blossoming
of me

you were blind
because you kept looking back in time
while i
had already opened my eyes

and it may be too late for you
but it's never to late for me
i won't forget the bad
ill think of it, and remember every word, ill remember every single thing