s o n d e r ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

t i m e

t i m e
/tai-me/
a numerical construct that may or may not exist, measures seconds, minutes, and hours

if i could marry you i would
just to give you my good graces
so that maybe you wouldn't
erase the good times
and these distant faces
in hopes that maybe you'd be good to me
and you wouldn't take away everything

in time
in you

that you'd let me
and everyone i love
just exist
infinitely

but infinite you
could never solve anything
because i wish i could hold you
and then sometimes i wish you'd leave as fast as you could
i'm asking so much of
a nonexistent thing
but as the hours go by
and you
fly

i can't settle anything
it doesn't matter how many days go by
time just doesn't work on me
and maybe that's an issue
that i don't progress
that i can't change with you
i'm still living in the moments you took for me
the moments that were so beautiful u never imagined that one day they'd leave

trust
if i could marry time
it would definitely divorce me
i can't progress
i can't go

i exist in all of the moments that can no longer be
so
sue me

me thinking so negatively
i'm sorry i don't have much of excuse
only that maybe time is moving a lot slower for me

i guess one day i'll catch speed
until then
i'll be doing what i do
maybe we all outgrow everything
eventually
maybe you'll think of me
how i think about old shoes

just something
you
outgrew

you should throw them out
they don't serve you anymore
just an old nuisance
useless
i don't want anything to do with it

if only your shoes could walk away for you
this time
ill leave
no godspeed
no big outburst
not like how you'd all expect me
because that's never done me any good
and even if ive learned my wrongs
it's lovely to know that it still doesn't mean anything to you
digging into my soul
looking for the perfect way to watch me fall through
you did it
are you satisfied?

are you satisfied with the way you used you time?
and the way you
diminished mine?