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a n t i t h e s i s

a n t i t h e s i s
/anˈtiTHəsəs/
noun
a person or thing that is the direct opposite of someone or something else.

she was cursed by the past
fearing the inevitable
those memories didn't last
they fell apart in her hands
she watched the colors change from miserable
b
l
u
e
to a beautiful magnificent
pink

without a doubt
those who would wish to see her fail
would too fall down
because new
meant endless opportunities
for her

so she took those tools
and tore the canvas
trust
she didn't care how it appeared to others
she did what was best for her
so she'd stop seeing those colors
so she's stop blaming her mother

and then
they forgave each other
her mind and soul
connected and intertwined in a way that many people wished would die
that perfection of hope and happiness
made them sick inside
well stay sick
stay bitter
because her wish
is granted everyday that she lives

in a life where she no longer wants or needs
in a life where there is no give or receive
her eyes are open
as if she was only chosen to see
that just because they aim to destroy
it won't always break apart pieces of me

you can't break a barrier when there are no walls underneath
make it all for everyone all the time
if you can say it to one
make sure
there are no secrets to keep

without any pain to hide
how can you expect defeat?
she is wow
she is beyond me
and i envy her
because she's everything i always wanted to be
i never thought my eyes would come to see her again
and there she is
in the mirror looking back at me

crying
not for others
but for me
because now i and my reflection
can breathe

now i see
and it's laughable
if any adversary
thinks they have power over me

i have so much more than material things
i have something
that everyone wanted to take from me

a heart full of love
even for those who cannot understand how to receive
that's not my responsibility
it seems they are the opposite of me

but we aren't opposing in negativity
I can't relate
even when they reinforce hate
i can't reciprocate
i'm happy, and i just don't feel that way
i don't hurt others for fun or spite
that's so seventh grade
but while we're leveling up
they'll be back in seventh grade

until the real world comes knocking
and you can't separate yourself from the hatred
it's almost like you can't escape it
because the hatred is you

i can't change minds
but i will always try
and i did
and that's what was good enough for me
and you?

i'll never be sure
but as long as i do good and good comes to me
i don't see the need to feed
on your silly
negativity