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n i r v a n a

n i r v a n a
/nərˈvänə,nirˈvänə/
noun
a transcendent state in which there is neither suffering, desire, nor sense of self, and the subject is released from the effects of karma and the cycle of death and rebirth. It represents the final goal of Buddhism. or a state of perfect happiness; an ideal or idyllic place.

some say
moksha
is the perfect place
that heaven on earth is a lie
but on a day like this
heaven is the only place i can find
i think that maybe
i find it in the moments that don't make much sense
when the world doesn't want to draw you back in
and you're just separated from everyone
the feeling is beautiful
but it's intense
knowing that all that you are
is all that you can be
and it doesn't have to be enough for anyone or anything
because we are all apart of this big cycle of confusion and insecurity
trying to define life in actions that feel right
but there's no one to say
you're doing just fine
because we all are lost, foolish, and young
i think we stop becoming young when we die
age doesn't equate to knowing more or less
or doing right or wrong
so i am willing to each
even if the world doesn't get my reasoning
my thoughts aren't their's to keep
tonight i watch the fireflies
and i listen to mac miller sing
angels come in many forms
and so do we
different voices
faces
souls
and colors

we may seem so different
yet we all have one thing in common
we are all connected to one another
we are all submitted into this form of living
and we will all live
and we will all die
heaven can't wait
because i've got no time
my breath could be taken away
just as quickly as i sigh
it's upsetting but
comforting knowing that we all are this way
it doesn't matter if i have a million people near me
or none
i think i'm enough for me
and so the cycle ends
but endings are never over
it is just time for a new path to begin

so i walk toward the inevitable
wandering foolishly
never sure of where i'm going or
what i'm doing
but i know that my heaven
is here
and it's comforting
and i don't think anyone could take that away from me
my moksha
my nirvana
is inside of me
and where i go
it follows
it grasps the insides of my soul
and eden grows
i lay
in peace
i walk in peace
and now it is so clear to me
we are no better or worse than any living thing
human is human
and i am willing to each