God dammit

Chapter Eleven

I sat in the living room biting my nails flipping through the calendar. It had to just be stress. I mean in the last two months I had been rescued from an abusive prick, harassed by douches and filing a divorce with a restraining order.

It HAD to be stress. I sighed loudly and flipped back two months and started counting and trying to rack my brain, hoping I had just forgotten. But no. I hadn't gotten my period in over a month. I put my face in my hands. I took a shaky breath, trying not to cry.

The door opened and Snake walked in.

"Hey Sophi," he said, dropping his briefcase by the door and coming over to kiss me on the forehead.

"Hey," I said, softly.

He looked at me then the calendar, "Something wrong?"

I nodded.

"What?" he asked.

"I'm over a month late."

"Are you sure?" he asked.

I look at him and gave a short laugh, "yeah Snake. I'm SURE."

He sat down slowly beside me. After a moment he spoke.

"We, um, haven't had sex."

I nodded, "I know."

"Steven?"

I nodded again. I didn't want to face that truth. If I said it out loud, it seemed to make it seem real.

"I'm really sorry Snake," I said, softly, my voice cracking, "I didn't mean to do this to you."

I stood up, "I'll find somewhere to go. I'll get out as soon as I can."

I started to walk away but a hand grabbed my wrist, stopping me. I couldn't look at him.

"Sophi." His voice was deep and serious. I could tell he was standing right behind me.

"You are NOT going anywhere. Are we ready for a kid? No fucking way. Do I wish it was mine? Yes. Is it going to be hard as hell? Yes. But I love you Sophi. God dammit I love you. I loved you the minute I met you and I have loved you every second since. Four years ago I fucked up and I let you go. I hurt you in unimaginable ways. But I will never let you go again. You are NOT alone. You have the whole crew," he turned me around, "and you have ME. If you are pregnant we will find a way to make this work. I will not leave you alone in this. And I will love you and this child, like it was my own. I promise you."

He looked me in the eyes. Tears were pouring over my cheeks and I threw myself into his arms, sobbing into his chest.

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"So. Why are we all here?" Cry asked.

Cry, Scott, Russ and Snake were seated in Snakes living room. Red had dragged Sophi to the bathroom as soon as she got there. Clearly knowing something the other three guys didn't.

Snake didn't answer. There was a silence that was broken by the bedroom door opening. Snake turned in his seat to look at who it was.

Red stood there and motioned for Snake to come over. Snake put down his beer and got up.

"She wants you," Red said softly, pointing to the master bathroom.

Snake pushed past her gently. Red stepped out into the living room, shutting the bedroom door behind her. The guys left in the living room looked at her but she only shook her head and headed into the kitchen.

"Snake?" I said.

He was standing in the doorway of the bathroom. He looked over at the bathroom counter. There were at least five pregnancy tests sitting there on a paper towel. Walking over, he read them.

"They're all the same," I said looking down, "I'm pregnant. I'm going to be a mom."

I burst into tears as soon as I said that statement. Snake quickly pulled me into his arms and held me while I cried.

After a couple minutes, I pulled away.

"Snake, will you tell the guys?" I asked softly.

He nodded and kissed me gently. He guided me over to the bed.

"Lay down," he instructed gently, pulling the covers back.

I climbed into bed and pulled the covers over me. Snake went out into the living room. I could hear him talking.

Snakes POV:

Cry, Scott and Russ stood up as soon as I entered.

"Will someone please tell us what's going on?!" Cry snapped.

Red was sitting at the dining table with a glass of wine. She just stared at the wall across from her.

I sighed and looked at them, "Sophi is pregnant."

Scott fell back into his seat. And Russ' mouth hung open.

"I thought you guys didn't have sex," Cry said slowly.

"We didn't."

Cry stood there thinking for a moment before he looked at me, eyes wide.

"Steven?"

I nodded.

"That son of a bitch!" Cry yelled.

Sophi's POV:

I heard Cry yelling and Snake talking to him calmly. Foot steps came rushing to the door and then it was thrown open. Cry stood there.

He took wide footsteps and was at the bedside in seconds. He pulled me towards him and hugged me tightly.

"Sophi I know we had our ups and downs. I haven't been the best friend I should've been this past month. But I swear to you I will be better. You ARE my best friend and I love you. I will be here to help you in any way. We all will be. You're our family. And we will love this child and raise it in this wonderfully dysfunctional family."

I pulled away and smiled at him, "thank you Cry."

I looked at doorway and saw everyone standing there smiling at me.

This was my family. It was crazy and we're all broken. But we were going to do the best we could. And I would make sure this kid had everything he or she needed.