i do...wait, what?! || louis tomlinson

She's Not Afraid?

Hello all you readers!!! I just wanted to say before I start I have decided with #2!! I'm so sorry to those who wanted #1, but I just got messages and comments saying #2. I have decided it will be a little bit of both for those who wanted married stuff. It'll be her planning the wedding. Alright, so here you go!! Now I'll tell you how many chapters left at the end!! 

~Mallory's POV~

This is it. This is the day I stand up in front of the court and tell my story to the judge about Rob. I should probably explain this all first. It's been a week since New Years and as soon as we got back, I got a call asking me to appear in court so they could press Rob with charges of all the stuff he has done. I gladly agreed, but I'm nervous. Everybody was going to watch, but they couldn't go past the wall. 

I straightened out the skirt of my dress as I looked in the mirror. My hair had completely washed out all of the dirty-blonde hairdye. Finally! I had hated the look, yet everybody else loved it. I shrugged it off as I  swiftly made my way out of the bedroom and down the marble staircase. 

"You're ready," Louis grinned as he stood by the door, keys in hand. I nodded and followed him to the car, slipping into the passangers side. 

"I'm nervous," I stated, looking down at my lap. Louis took my hand and held it to his heart. 

"I'll be right there behind you, love," He smiled, slightly. He began to drive as I prepared myself for the long drive back to Doncaster. Oh joy! 

*~* 

When we finally arrived, I was immeadiately whisked away to a table where there were two people that I had no idea of their identity. I saw Louis, Liam, and Dani through the glass window. Louis blew a kiss to me before I had to begin talking to the people. 

"Hello, Ms..." One of the men began. "Should I call you Ms. Connor or Mrs. Tomlinson?"

"Either," I told him. 

"Okay, well we just need you to honestly tell the judge everything he's done to you," The other man said. I nodded before the judge called order. 

It went on for about an hour before I got called up to the stand. 

"Ms. Connor," The lady said, pacing back and forth. "What exactly has happened between you two?"

"Well, we had been dating for two years before we broke up. We were very socially active with parties and such, but something in my life made me realize what was happening. Rob abused me. I was going to his apartment, with the intent of breaking up with him actually, but before I had the chance of doing so he attempted to rape me. He first smacked me then stuck a hand up my dress, so I acted in self defense and I kicked him where it hurts. The smack caused a bloody nose." I said, with a shaky breath. "Then he crashed my engagement party. He came, who knows how he found out, but he was yelling at me about how he loved me. He tried to touch me, so Louis, my fiance, protected me."

"YOU LIAR! YOU BITCH!" Somebody shouted. I turned my head to the owner of the voice. "How could you lie like that? You bitch! You slut! Why must you be such a goddamn, fatass, whore?" They began to restrain him and carry him away, but he had to get some last words in.

"You're worthless! How could you do this to me, you bitch! You're the one who deserves to rot in there, not me! I mean who was the one of us who killed the baby?" He said some more things, but I only heard that. My face paled and tears welled up in my eyes, but I remained frozen. I was horrified at what he just said to me and I couldn't move a muscle as I thought about it.

Was I a monster? Am I a murderer? Am I really those things? I moved my shaky hand to cover my wide open mouth and tears streamed out of my eyes. But I never sobbed. I never moved a muscle other than to cover my mouth. I just sat there, pale as a ghost, staring at nothing and being completely horrified with myself. It seemed like ages that I sat there, being horrified with myself. It felt like hours when Louis finally came to me, wrapping his arms around me. I still didn't move, so he picked me up and carried me to behind the glass wall where Dani, Liam, Harry, and Cher were. He sat down on a couch with me in his lap. He cradled me like I was a newborn child, rocking back in forth as tears continued to stream down my now white face.

"I'm a monster," I whispered in a shaky voice. 

"No, Mallory," Louis said, his voice shaking just as much as mine. "You are far from a monster,"

"I'm a monster," I repeated, my voice cracking. "Louis, I'm a murderer." 

"Don't you dare say that," He whispered, his voice shaking. "Mallory, don't you dare," I felt tears drip onto my head and thats when I knew he was crying, too.

"I am a killer." I whispered, tears streaming down my cheeks. "I don't deserve you,"

"Stop it! Just stop!" He finally said, giving in. His voice was cracking and tears were streaming down his face. "I love you, with all of my heart. You are an amazing person! Now don't you dare say you're a monster, you don't deserve me, or any of that. Don't you dare!" The last part came out as a whisper. I looked around to see everyone with tears running down their cheeks. 

"He was right! Look at me! I killed a child. I don't deserve any of you. I'm a monster." I repeated, shaking like an earthquake. 

"Mallory, stop!" Harry said, his voice shaking as he stood up. "I can't stand this! You are not a monster. Don't say any of these things, they aren't true." 

"Promise?" I whispered, looking up for the first time. 

"Pinky promise," He stuck out his pink and I hooked mine with his. I turned around and wrapped my arms around Louis, resting my head on his chest and letting his shirt soak with my tears. 

"Let it out, love," He cooed, rubbing calming circles on my back. By the time I had finished, it was time to go. I fell asleep on the car ride home, but my dreams were awful.

*In her dream*

Slut. Whore. Bitch. Murderer. He repeated those words, screaming them into my ear. He wouldn't stop, he just kept screaming and screaming and screaming. It would get louder and louder each time.

"This is what you get, you worthless bitch!" He screamed, kicking me down. Warm liquid ran down my face, but I realized this wasn't tears. I wiped the blood away and I tried to make a run for it. I ran through the never ending tunnel. As soon as I would get anywhere close, I would just be farther away. I ran and ran until slipping into darkness.

"Mal! Mal, baby, wake up!" Louis shook me, his eyes glistenning with tears. I sat up, tears running down my cheeks, as I looked at my surroundings. We were at our house now, laying in our bed. I wrapped my arms around Louis, clinging on as if my life depended on it.

"Never leave," I whispered.

"Never," He agreed. "I love you forever,"

"I love you for always."

I drifted off to sleep hearing his amazing voice and feeling his strong arms wrapped around me.

"I won't let these little things slip

out of my mouth

but if I do

then it's you

oh it's you

they add up to

I'm in love with you

And all these Little Things"

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Okay it's kind of short and I was planning on putting more, but I loved that as the ending. I am going to admit I was crying while I wrote this. Really hard. God I'm a softie! xD Anyways as I promised here's the plan for the sequel.  So I have decided on #2 and have 8 more chapters until the sequel. Okay well byeeeeeee! 

P.S. 2000 reads for the next chapter guys!!! :D