i do...wait, what?! || louis tomlinson

I'm Back!

Hi guys :) I took an unintentional break from this story for a while, as I was suffering from disinterest. Now, I became distanced from One Direction in general there for a while, which I completely regret. I got into other genres within Wattpad, so now I'm coming back.

First of all, I want to apologize for all of you who I've disapointed while writing this story in my updates. I know you've been expecting an update for a while, so I really am sorry.

Second of all, I was disinterested in One Direction all together for about a month, as I got into other things, but I was recently introduced to a new series of videos, but things more than fanfiction. Larry Stylinson.

***IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN LEARNING OR READING ABOUT LARRY STYLINSON DO NOT READ PAST THIS POINT. If you do decide to read, I don't want negatives comments.***

I've seen Larry Stylinson on Wattpad, but I automatically assumed it was just fanfiction all together. I didn't even consider that they might actually be gay. Now, the other day I saw a video that explained that there are two Eleanor Calders. This video introduced the height differences between the two girls, the facial differences, the facts, etc. It was truly facinating how this unfolded to me.

After seeing this, that led me to videos on how Elouner is fake, or a publicity stunt. All the evidence in these videos made sense, but why would they do this? Obviously, Eleanor, if that's her real name, isn't actually a model, so it wouldn't be doing her any good. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is how we have been brought to the topic of Larry Stylinson.

Over the past few days, I have been researching Larry Stylinson evidence and proof, including the "Larry Bible", and also analyzing interviews and such on my own. While watching these videos, it all made sense to me. These boys are obviously in love and just screaming for somebody to notice, but what's holding them back. None other than the wonderful Modest! Management that we've come to love. Not.

As I reviewed this, I became truly disgusted with what they're forcing the boys to act like. It was pointed out that whenever a "Larry question" came up in an interview, Louis is trained to answer these. Why not Harry? He can't lie to save his life. For example, in an interview on May 31, 2012 where they're asked about "Larry Stylinson", Louis' reply was very convincing. Note the sarcasm.

Transcript of interview:

Louis: Um...yeah...the fans make- originally I saw that they were making these little fanflicks, which is there they make-

Interviewer: Fanfiction!

Louis: Yeah. But then it turned into so many people genuinely thinking me and Harry are in a relationship...when, quite frankly, we just started off saying we were really good friends, and then everyone said this, and...

-Transcipt Finished-

Now, the whole time, Harry's looking down and twisting around his Leeds bracelet. For those of you who don't know what Leeds is, it's a music festival that Harry and Louis went to, where they gave out these fabric bracelets. Harry wore his bracelet for atleast a year afterwards and in the spot where he wore the bracelet is where his tattoo is that says "I can't change". Leeds Festival is considered one of the last places where Harry and Louis could actually act like themselves around eachother, meaning the bromances and little hand holding and cuddling, etc. As Lou is talking, he puts his arm around Harry's shoulder and they make brief eye contact. Harry pulls away from the gaze and looks back down, obviously guilty.

That moment alone makes me really sad. Management has made it so he can't even look his own love in the eyes without feeling guilty? Bravo, Modest, bravo.

Now, I know that I am quite late on this topic, because as this was all going on and being delt with, I was quite oblivious to the current things of One Direction. I had recently got into them and their music, so I was more at a catching up stage. Now, after being in the fandom for almost a year, I know every fact about these boys, so it's no more catching up. So as I watch these videos on proof of their relationship, I practically know what they're thinking and everything makes much more sense. If I had watched these videos and evidence when it was more recent back in late 2012, I would've been confused and it could've messed up my whole view on 1D.

I'd also like to point out that this isn't the first time this has happened, management hiding the sexuality of boys in a heart-throbbing boyband. The reason they do this, as sick as it is, is for appeal. If you were say a Directionator or just a Directioner who doesn't believe in Larry and is obsessed with them, then you wouldn't understand if they came out. You wouldn't be supportive anymore, you'd just stop buying the albums. You'd stop buying the merchandise and you'd stop watching the videos. I see that they're doing this for the sake of the band, but these boys are obviously screaming for help. I will post links to some of the videos I've been watching so you can see that even though they try to be subtle, they make no attempt in hiding it. And you shouldn't have to.

The quote on Harry's arm is arguable, "I Can't Change", being from a song that a band played at Leeds or from the chorus of "Same Love" by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis ft. Mary Lambert. "And I can't change. Even if I tried, even if I wanted to." Either way, it's meaningful. And the fact that they have to hide it and try to tell people through the sneakiest ways, it's disgusting and sick, but still so beautiful.

I'm proud of my boys, even if they aren't my boys. I'm like any other fan, sitting here an crying over One Direction, but every single fan has a different meaning to those tears. Before, all of my tears were of happiness. I was before a fan without a care, it wasn't serious. It felt serious to me, but it meant nothing more than lyrics that made me happy and a nice story of their rise to fame. As I became more involved into One Direction, I knew more things and I felt like I knew these boys personally. Of course, I'm not the only one to feel like because they have millions of fans. But these five boys make every fan feel special.

Now, when I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes watching these videos and interviews, it's of sadness. It's a whole new level of anything I've ever had to do with One Direction before. For instance, when Harry looked guilty in the interview I mentioned earlier, I sat there feeling heartbroken for him. Imagine having to hide and lie about you love to the whole world. How guilty would you feel? It's absolutely disgusting how things are like this.

But of course, there is always the possibilty that I'm wrong. That we're all wrong and there is no "Larry Stylinson". But you have to look at the facts: any of the other romances between any of the boys are serious, so why is Larry so protected. Larry is paid the most attention to, it's denied the most, it's tried to be proved wrong and right the most. What about Lilo or Narry or Niam or any of the others? There's practically no attention paid to them besides the usual tag in a cute picture of them. It's never caused the uproar that Larry has.

I'm just stating facts, as is everyone else. We could, of course, be completely wrong about it all. It's possible that there is no Larry Stylinson after all. But you just have to look at the facts.

Thank you for reading and there will be an update very soon, I promise <3

Here are the links to the videos:

Are There Two Eleanor Calders? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHZ1IOitmrI

Why Elounor (And Haylor) Are Fake #1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4DHp5RmiDw

You Just Have to Pay Attention: Episode 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4DHp5RmiDw

As for the last one, continue on in the series if you're interested. They get better and better as she made more episodes. There are obviously many videos on these topics and you could watch any ones that you want, but these are the ones that convinced me. I don't think you can click on links anymore, so I really suggest that you either copy and paste the links, or search the titles (I typed the exact titles before each link, just search that). They're really worth watching, so please do. I appreciate your feedback and whatnot, so send me messages and comments on what you think about this chapter and/or the whole situation in general.

~Becca <3